It's Complicated

CHAPTER 17

                            -Zayn's POV-

     At around 4 in the morning I woke up to Nicole talking in her sleep. I have herd her before. But suddenly she screams. She rolls off of me and keeps screaming the word no.
"Nicole, Nicole wake up please" I start to panic. She is sweating and shaking. It has never been this bad. I start to shake her.
"Nicole wake up please"
     Her eyes snap open. They are full of fear and anger. Her hands wrap around my neck as if she was going to strangle me.
"Nicole it's me it's ok" I try to tell her while gasping for air.
     She finally realized who it was. The anger left her eyes but the fear was still there.
"I'm so sorry" she says hugging me instead.
"Are you ok"I ask scanning her face.
"Yes I'm fine" I can tell she is lying.
"No you aren't, you almost strangled me" I say. "Please tell me"
"You won't understand" she says quietly.
"Just explain" I try again.
"Fine but its going to take a while"
"I'm fine with that I'm not going to bed with you like this anyways" I say honestly.
"Ok so when I was around 6 years old, my mom and dad started drinking, and I mean bad drinking. They were always out late and were hardly home during the day. But when I was 8 they started coming home after we all went to bed and my dad started to beat me" she started her story and I already felt really bad but stayed silent.
"And my mom didn't help, she just verbally abused me. William stopped hanging out with his friends to stay with me and protect me. He tried to keep them away from me. He sometimes got beat instead. My mom's abuse didn't affect me until I was 12. She said I was fat and ugly and useless. Presley started to protect me as much he could too. But nothing worked. I started to be live what my mom was saying. One day after my abuse-" she paused and took a breath.
"I grabbed a knife on my way out and went to my room" I already knew where this was going and my eyes started to water.
"I tried to stab myself in the chest but Presley came in and stopped me" she had no expression on her face while she spoke and I was in silent tears.
"The next night while my dad was hitting me, Presley grabbed me and William held him back for a while. Presley took me to willams room since he was the only one who had a lock on his door and a phone. We called the cops and they aressed my parents. When I came down stairs William was covered in blood. But it wasn't all his. My dad was apparently really beat up. William was almost 20 at the time so he got to raise me for the rest of my child hood. But I still have dreams of the torcher" she stopped and looked at me. I was still crying.
"But last year my mom and dad decided to talk to me. Apparently they changed. I don't be live it and I'm still distant and not just with them, I distant with everyone, including you. And after I was abused by Matt I don't really trust anyone except my brothers and kinda you" she said looking directly at me.
"You can trust me, I will never hert you, ever" I say.
"I know but this is how Matt was in the beginning too, I do trust you more than a lot of people" she said.
"Why are you helping your mom with the cancer bill" I ask.
"Because no matter how much I don't like them and nearly hate them I'm not heartless and they are my parents" she says.
"Ok so why did you try to strangle me" I say half joking and half serious.
"Well my natural instinct and what my brothers taught me is to protect myself and that usually means hurt first ,ask questions later" she says. and I was dreaming about my dad beating me and you were shaking me so I grabbed you"
"By hurt you mean kill" I joke.
"Well I would never actually hurt you Zayn" she says.
"Well I don't think we are going to sleep any more tonight,so you wanna Whatch a movie" I ask changing the subject.
"Ya but only if I pick the snacks" she says and runs out of the room while getting her robe on without letting me answer.
     I get my robe on and pick a movie. We both like comedie so I pick the first hangover. In few more minutes she comes back with a load of snacks. I laugh as she throws everything across the bed. I sit down after putting in the movie in and take off my robe. Nicole takes her's off and sits between my legs and rests her head on my chest. We eat some snacks and laugh at the movie. After we Whatch all the hangover movies in order it is finally 8 in the morning and Nicole fell asleep on me.