Saving Him • editing/rewriting

twenty five- i will never

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Hunter's POV

After Katie had left to ogle the chocolate fountain, we all sat and talked about our plans for the day while shovelling our faces with food. I glanced over at Tom and I smiled to myself when I saw that he was eating properly. He looked happy as well. I'm glad him and Katie had a good, clean breakup. And to be honest, I was kind of glad that they weren't seeing each other anymore although I'd never admit that to anyone.

I was startled out of my thoughts when Tom suddenly stood up from his seat, "I have to go to the bathroom." He mumbled as he scurried away. Lola shot me a worried look. We didn't have to say anything to know what was happening. I stood up and went after him.

When I flung open the door to the bathroom, my heart broke when I heard retching coming from one of the stalls. I walked over and rested my head against the closed door.

"Tom," I said and surprised myself at how weak and shaky my voice was. "Tom, please let me in."

There was a moment of silence when he spoke, "Which one do you mean?" He asked leaving me confused. "Let you into the stall or let you in?"

I was surprised at his words. I let out a sigh, "Both. You need someone and I can be that someone. You're my best friend, can't you trust me?"

There were shuffling noises that came from inside and then the door creaked open, "Welcome back." He said.

I felt a pang of guilt at that. I had been a pretty bad friend these past couple of weeks, insulting him and basically taking it out on him because Katie liked him. I hadn't been there for him at all.

"I'm sorry I was a jealous dick." I muttered.

He smiled, "I'm sorry I stole your girl."

I opened my mouth to tell him that's he wasn't in fact my girl but I knew he wouldn't listen so I just kept quiet. This wasn't the time for that. There was something else, something bigger, that we needed to address.

"Are you still struggling to get better?" I asked in almost a whisper. He stayed silent. For so long that I didn't think he'd open up to me.

"No." He answered finally. "It's not as if you'd believe me but-"

"I would believe you even if you said that the world was going to end right this second." I said firmly.

He sighed, "When I became anorexic, I threw away the luxury of eating. I starved myself for so long that my body got used to it." He explained. "So when I get ahead of myself and stuff my face with food, this happens."

I nodded, "I understand. And I believe you Tom. I know you're trying so hard to get better." I told him and pulled him in for a hug. We weren't the type to hug like this but I think he needed it.

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When we got back, Katie was back at the table looking worried out of her mind. I nudged Tom and made him explain to everyone what happened. It would put Katie's mind at ease.

The others didn't know, and I didn't think it was very important for them to know either, but I was the only one that Tom told. He told me what happened at the date. He explained that it was Katie who broke up with him first. That she was the one who told him that they should stay friends.

I felt sorry for Tom, I really did but... Something inside of me felt relieved. I felt like I had another chance. But I pushed that thought down as far as I could because I couldn't have Katie. None of them knew my past and if they did, they would run the other way. I would lose them in less than five seconds.

If Katie got involved with me, she would get hurt. I didn't want her to get hurt. I wanted her to be happy and safe and I couldn't do that for her. So I tried to be happy when she was with Tom but I just couldn't. I couldn't watch her smile and laugh with someone else. I couldn't watch her hold hands with him and even the thought of her having feelings for someone else crushed me.

I knew I had to eventually let her go and be happy with someone other than me but I wasn't ready for that yet. I knew this would be close to leading Katie on but I can't stay away from her.

I'm sorry God but for now, I am going to stay by her side and enjoy every minute, every second of her company because I haven't felt like this in ages. Hell, I haven't felt like this in years. And what made me wake up at night drenched in sweat with my heartbeat thudding as if I'd run mile was that I haven't felt like this about a girl since... Her.

A/N

Happy new year my readers:) hope you had a fun New Year's Eve and hope 2016 will be a good year.

Who do you think Hunter's talking about? ;)) mystery girl ha.