Saving Him • editing/rewriting

ten-to get to know you

By Saturday I felt 100% again so I had to get ready for my third group therapy session. I was starting to enjoy them.

I arrived at the hospital early and decided to visit my mum. That made me realise that I hadn't told her about me being sick for the past couple of days. Oh well, it's not that she would've noticed. I silently laughed at myself for thinking even for a second that she did.

I asked the reception for her and they directed me to room 501 where she was currently talking to a patient. I made myself wait outside the door until she came out. But instead of seeing my mum, Mike came out of the room. He stared at me for a bit obviously not expecting to see me but gave me a tight smile, "Hello Katie." He greeted and walked away. Of course. I briskly walked off down to the room where group therapy was before I could see Mike again.

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To say that this therapy session was awkward would be an understatement. To say that I was complete nervous wreck would be an understatement as well. The whole time I couldn't stop feeling self conscious. It was like I could feel Hunter's eyes on me the whole time but of course that was just my paranoia working its magic. I would stutter whenever he talked to me and I would nearly jump out of my skin when he touched me unexpectedly. All in all, it was a very stressful hour for me.

"So Katie, mind explaining what the hell is up with you today?" Tom asked, looking at me with a look of disbelief.

"Nothing..." I mumbled.

They all have me looks, "We all know that a load of bullshit." Hunter said making my heart jump. Get a grip woman.

I took a deep breath, "I'm just feeling a little off from the cold, okay? Leave me be, God." I told them and stalked off to my bus stop with Tom and Lola coming right behind me.

Lola stopped me by putting a hand on my shoulder, "Katie, is something wrong? You know you can tell us. We'll always find a way to help you." She told me, a look of worry on her face. "Did you...hurt yourself again?"

My eyes widened, "No! No, no, no. That is so not it." I wave my hands around wildly. "It's just... Promise you won't tell Hunter?"

Tom and Lola's eyes widen to the size of saucers and I could see the excitement bubble up inside of them. Oh no, what had I done.

"You like him! Don't you, Katie?" Tom exclaimed. "You've got the hots for Hunter!"

They both squeal like twelve year old fangirls at a Justin Bieber concert.

"That explains why you were so nervous around him today." Lola said thoughtfully. "Wow this is so awesome!"

"We should get you two together ASAP." Tom said his eyes lighting up like a Christmas tree. Panic courses through me hearing his words.

"No! Guys promise you won't do anything or say anything to him until I'm ready okay?" I asked, looking at them seriously.

They both give me disappointed looks but agree to keep their mouths shut. That didn't stop them from telling Lauren though. I just hoped that those three idiots would keep their big mouths shut.

I couldn't explain it but... I felt scared. This feeling I had for Hunter wasn't just a crush. How I felt for Mike was nothing compared to what I feeling for Hunter and it was making me fear how I would feel if Hunter rejected me. It would also wreck our friendship. We would never be able to be just friends again. But then again, I couldn't just ignore the fleeting feeling I get in my heart when I see him or when he smiles or when he talks. It drove me crazy. I was more confused as to what to do than anything. I just hoped whatever I chose was the right desicion.