If it's not the solution then what is? To just happily care on and pretend all is well? How does one do that? I cut again yesterday, it had been since the 22 of last month since last time..this time I cut bad bad. I really shouldn't be here. I want to find a way but drinking myself into a coma doesn't work. Drugging myself into never land doesn't work. Trying to be happy when I've never been doesn't work cause no matter how I try I'm still left with me and my thoughts and memories. Satan doesn't bother me no more my brother talked to him where satan knows my brother will hurt him severely so I guess he thought I'm not worth it anymore..that doesn't stop the nighrmares.it doesn't stop the bleeding. Ot doesn't stop my hate for me, it doesn't stop the l9ks or laughter or taught ing or snickers or bullies..maybe if the gun were loaded???
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Random darkness
General Fiction*this story is very descriptive and may be considered triggering. Be in a safe frame of mind when reading* Thought wanderings of a depressed mess...No real rhyme or reason..insights about death, suicide, self injury, self hate,bullying, abuse. Allot...
