Waiting for War

luke

we're almost to the weekend. which means we're almost back in the game. i haven't heard from the council in a long time which makes me nervous. i can't help but think they want to use me again they're just waiting for their moment. i thought i botched it up last time enough for them to leave me alone but i was wrong. i'm sure of it. they will need me again. i'm nervous about ken too. he's one of the top killers. there's no way they won't need him. it's only a matter of time. worst of all is that they will need kassie. kassie seems to have accepted her fate. i can see it on her face but there's another expression i can see mirrored beneath that. resentment. remorse. i know kassie doesn't want killing it's her mother that does. and she seems to be capable of going as far as she can to get it. the only question is if kassie will follow in her footsteps even after knowing the consequences.

The other problem here is ken. he's not getting better. he's not trying to get better. in fact it seems like he's getting worse mentally. he's excelling in his classes but he doesn't do the work. he spends most nights alone in his room even when the dorm throws parties or there is an event. i have random alasians come up to me that used to know him ask why he's dropped off the map. he doesn't revel in the attention or his own confidence now and i'm not the only one that's concerned. most nights kally and i will check on him before doing our research into what's going on in this world. we try to get him involved but he doesn't care about any of it. he doesn't care about anyone. and he certainly doesn't care about anything.

that leaves kally and i alone a lot of the time. slowly we've been getting closer. she's still cold as an alasian but she's been warming up exponentially in comparison to how she used to be. it's quite shocking but not in a bad way. most times that i'm studying she'll study with me. she finds information to help us move forward too. it's like she genuinely cares now what the government is doing to us and deciding if she can stand with or against it.