Too many thoughts I can't express
Too many emotions killing my mind
Too many dreams that can't come true
Too many lies
Too many cries
Too many times
Someone pick me up, I've fallen too deep
My health isn't manageable anymore
I'll die before I can get what I need
I might as well stop wanting to be happy
What is that smile for?
Don't pretend I'm gonna be okay
I'm sick of the imagining
Because it doesn't solve a thing
Saying "but maybe that's not what will happen"
You don't know my enemies like I do
I know it won't go my way
I know I can't be who I wish I could be
It's a myth you keep creating
Don't tell me I can do what I want
I can only do what I'm forced into
There's no point in denying it anymore
I swear it won't get me anywhere
There's no healing in wishing it didn't have to be like this
So I guess I'll say it's how it's supposed to be
I guess I'll say your pain hurts worse
When it's only a fraction of what I'm feeling
I guess I'll hide everything that matters
Because what does it even matter?
Nobody looks at me with empathy
Not in reality
Nobody wants me around
Not when I can be
Nobody has seen me and known about the spark that faded
Nobody can save me
I'm too far away
Nobody can love me
Not in the same way
Nobody can understand what I think lately
And no one can know how the little things tear me apart
I want to be stronger
But I just wasn't made that way
No, nothing is really okay
But it guess that just has to be okay.
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
Lyssa's Poem Book
PuisiJust me ranting about my feelings through poetry, because why not?