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𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑎 𝑓𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑑𝑖𝑜𝑡. 𝐼 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑚𝑒𝑑 𝑒𝑛𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑑𝑠, '𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢', 𝑎𝑙𝑜𝑢𝑑, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑝𝑢𝑠ℎ𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦. 𝐼 𝑑𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑏𝑢𝑡...𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝐼'𝑙𝑙 𝑘𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑚𝑦 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒. 𝐽𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑎 𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑘 𝐼'𝑙𝑙 𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.

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𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑎 𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑘 𝐼 𝑓𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑔𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌 𝑑𝑜 𝑰 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑖𝑛 𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛?! 𝐴 𝑓𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑏 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘, 𝐴𝑚𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑎. 𝐼 𝑓𝑜𝑙𝑙𝑜𝑤𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝐼 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑘𝑎𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑝. 𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝐿𝐼𝐸𝐷! 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑔𝑜 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑐𝑘 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑐𝑜𝑐𝑘𝑟𝑜𝑎𝑐ℎ 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑜𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑡𝑎𝑙.

𝐻𝑒 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑'𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝐷𝐼𝐸𝐷 𝑌𝑂𝑈 𝐻𝐸𝐴𝑅 𝑀𝐸?! 𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑜𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑜𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑡𝑎𝑙 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑙𝑒𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟. 𝑀𝑎𝑦𝑏𝑒 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑘𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑒𝑛𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ.

𝐵𝑢𝑡, 𝑚𝑦 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝐴𝑚𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑎, 𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑎 𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑐𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑚𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑜𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢...𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑒? 𝐴𝐺𝐴𝐼𝑁?!

𝐼 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑'𝑣𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑠𝑒𝑥 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑟𝑠𝑡 𝑑𝑎𝑦 𝐼 𝑚𝑒𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝑌𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑒𝑛𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ.

Torture. Is that what all of this was? For saying that I love you? were you indirectly telling me that you will only have eyes for one person?

That being Theo. Even when I found out he was in the hospital through her I thought she would've been happy. But I only drew them closer.

𝑊𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒, 𝐴𝑚𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑎, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝐼 𝑒𝑥𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑘𝑖𝑐𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑏, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤, 𝐴𝑚𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑎, 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.

𝑁𝑜 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑒𝑙𝑦 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑖𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦'𝑟𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑚𝑒.

Easing my book closed I turned to my kitchen window. I decided that I neesed a bit of scenery since I needed to keep a close eye on her.

I gaze at her house, noticing her parked car. He's right inside, probably pretending to be a defensless pup cowering from thunder and rain.

I just don't know why he survived whatever crash he got it. If only you had been driving faster than you were.