Bad Boys Toys (english)

Chapter 30 Longing (18+)

And yet, melancholy also hovers in this feeling of longing.

Fourth's soul can no longer bear the little distance.

His senses want to unite with Gem's and quench all that flowing longing.

"Gem, can you please pull over for a moment?", Gem suddenly hears the sweet voice of his love.

And he just glances to the side and sees Fourth's appearance tinged with longing.

"Sure!" he replies, and puts on the blinker.

The open road is lined with the beauty of nature.

And that beauty surpasses even higher peaks here in the car.

Fourth's countenance makes Gem's soul proclaim the highest message.

"Do you have to pee?" he smiles at the most beautiful gift at his side as he pulls over to the side of the road.

And Fourth's eyes must want to nudge Gem's heart to erupt.

That deep, shimmering gaze shows Fourth's soul in such devoted form.

"Are you okay?", Gem's mind can only respond with concern.

What feeling can make his love look like that?

Is there something else on Fourth's mind that he wants to share with him now?

Should Gem be afraid of the next surprising twist?

He is so shaky inside.

All the efforts and changes he has made in himself bear fruit.

Good Boy's struggle against Bad Boy's tainted self-denial.

His deep pain at the thought of final loss.

Gem's so troubled.

He would have climbed any mountain to win Fourth over.

And having reached the highest peak, he understands that Fourth's deep wounds will take much more time.

Gem sees so clearly what he has done to Fourth all these years.

He sees a Fourth who keeps his love so deeply hidden.

He feels so clearly his wariness.

Fourths finds it safer to see Gem only as a Bad Boy.

And Gem is so weakened by the truth that is revealed to him.

He can't offer himself any security.

He is willing to show Fourth his love at any minute of the time.

So that he can heal.

So that he can trust him.

Gem wants to be strong after all.

But this collision with Mark.

A man so much more mature and better.

This jealousy feels so justified.

Fourths chooses the Bad Boy he only wants to see in Gem?

Instead of Poseidon?

Again, it was Mark who set Gem on the right path.

His eternal rival is his brother and friend.

Gem is so troubled.

His emotions surge so wildly in his inner sea that he can't even clearly grasp what affects him the most.

So many colors, each with their own justification, swirl around inside him, forming a fog.

And Gem's soul feels so depressed.