Weight of Words

Afraid

Does happiness truly exist?
How long would it take to find it?

Fear, the only emotion I've seemed to feel..is this.
Fear of losing what's not yet mine, whatever it is.

Fear of saying the wrong thing or of saying too much.
Too afraid to acknowledge the heart I wanted to remain untouched.

Fear, this feeling that does nothing but taint me.
Makes me feel like the real me is not good enough for anyone to see.

All I stand to gain is far less than what I stand to lose.
Especially if that loss means I lost you.