It's the stupid things
Like being allergic to cats
That somehow make me
Feel all the more
Unlovable
And unwantableWhy is there aways
Someone better
To live with
Why is there always someone better
To loveAm I really
So unlovable
That a cute house
And a pet
Are better to live with
Than meI get the other people
I understand
That this is the time
Where people get married
And leave
And I've accepted that
I knew it would hurt,
And it does,
But somehow
I didn't think
You'd be upset
About having to choose
Between
Me
And a cute house with a catIt hurts
To be so alone
In this stage
And at this age
While everyone else
Is getting their first houses
TogetherI was scared to be alone
And now I'm not scared
But it still hurtsI feel like the kid
Last picked
For recess
Left to choose between
The leftover houses
And other forgotten roommatesI don't want you to choose me
Over marriage,
I really don't,
I just wish
You'd choose me
For a little longer beforeI want to live off campus too
But I was excited
Because it meant I got to live with youI wish I felt
Like you wanted to live off campus
With me
Because tonight
I feel second to
A lover
And a house
And a catAnd for once
I just wish
I'd be the first choice
Just for a little bit02/06/23
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Poetry***PSA- PLEASE TAKE TIME TO READ MY MOST RECENT ADDITIONS TO THIS POETRY SAGA. I've been writing in this poetry journal since 2016 and they do get progressively better and more insightful.*** thank you carry on: These poems contain snippets of my...