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"You can't crush ideas by suppressing them. You can only crush them by ignoring them. By refusing to think, refusing to change."
― Ursula K. Le Guin
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I don't know why, but I felt more on edge than usual.
As I stood outside of my house, I could hear the quiet roar of shouting coming from inside. I do not want to go in there. I could already feel a headache starting.
I didn't care that I had already smoked a cigarette before starting the 10-minute drive here as I took another from my pocket and lit the end.
I took a drag but still felt nothing.
Suddenly, my phone rang. I pulled it out of my pocket. Azeem was calling. What did he want? I liked the guy but I wasn't in the mood for his usual brand of cheesy humor.
"What do you want?" I asked, cutting right to the chase as I answered the phone. He laughed. "Hello to you, too."
"What do you want?" I repeated again.
"Have you spoken to Michael recently? He isn't answering my calls." Azeem explained. I sighed. "Yeah, He's probably not answering 'cause he's planning on dumping you," I muttered bitterly.
"Wait, did he really say that?" Azeem asked, a panic in his voice.
I should not have told him that. Welp, it's too late to go back now. "Yeah," I answered honestly. Azeem didn't say anything else before hanging up.
I should not have done that. Not that it mattered. Things weren't working out between them anyway. Nothing mattered anymore. I took another drag. I needed something stronger.
"You shouldn't be smoking." A voice said, startling me. I turned to see Mr.Schindler standing on the porch. I took another drag.
"What are you going to do? Tell on me?" I asked tiredly. He put his hand on his hip. "If I have to. Though I doubt either of us wants your mother to know about this." He answered, challenging me. I rolled my eyes before dropping the half-finished cigarette to the ground and stepping on it.
"Give me your pack," Schindler asked, without missing a beat and holding out his hand. I sighed again before reaching into my pocket and pulling my pack out.
"You know, I liked you a lot better before you were dating my mom, Jeffery," I said as I handed him the pack.
It didn't matter if he took it or not, I would just buy another. Plus, I was almost finished with that one.
"What's wrong?" Schindler asked, not letting my comment phase him. I shrugged. I don't know what's wrong anymore. "Life," I finally answered.
"You've had a few bad days. But, that doesn't mean it's been a bad life, Daniel."
I looked away from him, toward the street. Hmm, I hadn't noticed my Dad's truck parked there earlier. That would explain the yelling I heard. I doubt Schindler would ever raise his voice at my mom. He wasn't that kind of guy.
"Does it ever get better? Life, I mean." I asked turning back to him. "If you are willing to try and make it better." He answered.
That's the problem. I don't know if I'm willing to try anymore.
"Do you remember meeting a man named Charles Coolie? He was at your art show last year." Schindler asked, suddenly changing the subject.
Not really. The night of the art show was mostly a haze now. "Why?" I asked.
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Coffee & Cigarettes
Teen FictionNothing is worse than coming back and finding out everything has changed. After his life fell apart, Daniel returned home knowing some things would be different. But he wasn't expecting things to change this much. Will Daniel be able to fix the me...