VegasxPete - My Salvation

Redemption

Pete's POV

I feel so disgusted of myself...

Am I still human??

Is this still right?? Should I still trust him?

I can't feel my body anymore as Khun Vegas repeatedly raped me in this red room..

Am I going to die?? Should I kill myself??

I can't handle this.... I wanna go back home...grandma...grandpa...help me...Khun Noo I'll always accompany you every where you go even if we party everyday I won't complain...but please help me... I can't take it anymore...this is too painful...
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I'm losing myself..is this still me??

Am I turning into someone else?? Why do I feel so good when he does these cruel things to me?!! I'm so confused..

"Please..Khun Vegas..stop" I plead to him for a couple of times...but still he won't listen..

"Shhh...a pet doesn't tell his master what to do right??.." he said to me as he forcefully grabs my face.."he just follows and doesn't complain.." he adds...

Am I a pet ?? Should I be one? Does it have to be me?Why me?!

I don't know when he stopped forcing himself on me because I passed out..

But for the nth time ...

I really feel so disgusted of myself...

All these sticky fluids on my body especially down there..

I don't even know if I should be angry or laugh at this time.... I wanna laugh at myself for being so stupid..I don't even know what to really feel..or how should I describe what I feel ...

But I think I don't hate it...maybe??...I....but.... I..... I don't know... I can't say for sure on what I really feel right now about this situation....

But one thing is for sure...right now I feel that my body is so exhausted... it's like I've taken part on many missions in one day...that kind of feeling....or run around chasing Khun Noo telling him not to do this and that..

I passed out earlier because of how Khun Vegas intensely did THAT to me...and I hate that he did it without my consent... I don't even have feelings for him...making love should be done with someone you love in the name of love and not with anyone else just for the sake of quenching your lustful appetite...I mean he should atleast ask right? But who am I to dictate him? I'm just a bodyguard..

I still cannot open my eyes ...maybe because I cried so hard earlier... I think my eyes are swelling..

"Pete...Pete..wake up.."  Khun Vegas says as he taps my cheek...

I didn't respond to him..one because I'm so tired to even open my eyes...my body hurts all over....two...because I'm still confused and I don't wanna talk to him....and because Khun Vegas didn't hear any response from me...he unties all the rope on my body..and then he coveres me with a cloth..

He carries me upstairs to his room..what is he going to do to me??

He placed me on a soft surface which I think is his bed? Is he not yet finished?? Is he going to force himself on me again??