Everlasting; The Promised Neverland [Reader Insert]

39 | The First

You, who are still bewildered from his question, only answered a quiet "I won't."

It's all Ray needs before he erase the distance between the two of you and make sure he is warping his hands around you in a way that isn't crushing or anything unpleasant. His left hand is resting behind your waist while the right hand, which thumb was caressing you earlier, is tugging your head to lean on his chest.

You've lost the glimmering glint in your eyes, once that was lively like your soul. Ray fully grasps your condition now and he won't repeat the same mistake he did last time. He will never leave you, he will help your healing until your lively spirit comes back, even if it means he has to put all the shred one by one.

"It was all the past, Y/N. The Ratri clan won't be able to land their hands on you ever again," said Ray.

He slowly leans his head to you. "You have us to protect you too, me, Emma, and everyone. Just like Emma said."

Ray is willing to do anything what it takes to bring back your old self again. For achieving that goal, it only can be possible if you also willing to open yourself for him too.

The little flower who has lost its track, but it isn't yet to wither and struggling to survive. As long as it's still alive and someone can pour it water, the flower still can bloom into a strong beautiful creature.

"Talk to me, please."

You clench your fist above his jacket. The barrier you made to defend yourself is nearly destroyed to the dust, the only left is the thin walls around your heart. This is the last chance for you to retreat, pulling yourself back and taking your time to build those barrier again.

Or to finally surrender to what is it you truly want, not what you thought should've been the correct one.

"You will hate me if I told you." Your sight has been getting blurry, the air is suffocating and your voice is trembling. You are already in the verge of crying with the last remaining massive skepticism.

But Ray answered without missing a beat or any hesitation, "I won't."

"No, you don't understand. What I did was terrible beyond any forgiveness, no matter how hard I want to repent, it's going to haunt me for the rest of my life. That's ... just how intolerable it is, even if it's from you."

"There's nothing that I can't tolerate."

"How can you be so sure?!"

Ray moves his right hand to your cup your face. He turns your face to face him, locking your eyes to him. Even if you practically yelled at him, his reply is soft as he whispers.

"Because it's you."

Behind that soft whisper of his, you are able to clearly feel how serious he is with his words. Ray's not offering you empty reassurance and his strong gaze is enough to emphasize it.

"You can tell me even the most hideous thing a person can do, and I will still tolerate it because you were the one who did it. Tell me and I promise, I won't budge even a little."

You sure you didn't breath as long as he spoke as you weren't able to. At the end, one question has spoken out from your lips, "Why? How can you trust me that wholeheartedly?"

You don't deserve it.

The corner of his lips is twitching a bit, showing a simple yet genuine smile. "I know you, you won't do those without proper reason."

His answers strike like a light during a day. It warms your chest in a way you don't imagine. The feeling of being trusted.

"You're right, I don't understand a damn thing what you were thinking, what's weighing your mind and what's not." Ray stops for a bit when a leaf is falling over your hair. With a little chuckle, he removes it.