white sabered || kylo ren x reader

Ten

You woke up the next morning on the cold surface of the cell bed, a single sheet covering your body, and no pillow for comfort. You shivered slightly, looking up at the blinding light that protruded from your cell.

Suddenly, that light was blocked out. Now you saw the outlining of Kylo Ren like the holy demon he was, watching you from the other side of the bars.

"What do you want?" You muttered, feeling your cheek. You felt the dried tears from last night still stained against your skin.

Kylo's lip tightened. "I wanted to see what you were doing. I don't want you trying anything sly anymore."

You scoffed. "Isn't that the guards' job?"

There was silence that lingered between the two of you, and finally Kylo spoke up.

"Your pain is overwhelming you. It's engulfing and consuming your entire state of mind whole. I could not rest last night because the grief you had felt caused an unbalance in the air of the force in this ship." He explained.

You stared up at him, but then gave him a pitiful laugh. "What do you want me to do? Just stop being sad that I just found out my captor and mentor murdered the only people who I ever trusted? You really are an apathetic monster." Your voice cracked as the thought of your mother and father crept back into your mind.

Kylo whispered your name, and you looked back up at him. He gestured for you to come closer.

You quirked a brow, rubbing the new tears away from your eyes. You shakily stood up, walking over to where you were face to face. The only thing blocking you now was the cell bars.

"What I'm trying to say is-" He started, but seem to falter as he tried piece together the right words.

"Your pain. I don't like seeing it." He finally admitted. "I just.. I want to help you."

You sniffled, accidentally interrupting him. You cursed yourself mentally, and finally spoke. "Go on."

"Your pain could all be diminished if you just let me help you. I could guide you and continue to mentor you! If you joined the dark side, you could stay by my side and be one of the top Commanders of The First Order. You have so much potential power you have yet to unleash. You have only had a simple taste from our training because you keep holding back and I don't understand." He boomed your name, almost causing you to jump.

"Join me. Your home is no more. Atticus and Jacqueline are no more." He now whispered to you, almost like he was trying to lull you into his master plan.

"If you joined The First Order and the dark side you wouldn't be here, feeling this pain. You would be free of all pain and suffering because you would be transforming it all into power!"

You felt your blood spark with rage at the words Kylo was speaking, and you felt your brain go numb as the words fell from your mouth faster than you could process them.

"You dare tell me this!" You screamed out, gripping onto the bars. "You tell me this after you tell me about how you executed my mother and father and you have the nerve to try and coax me into the dark side? How dare you!" You felt your hands becoming red from how tightly you had your grip on the bars.

"You ruined my life. You ruined everything I ever had. I don't want to join your damn dark side Kylo Ren. I want to do anything but that. You're vile. You're so very vile!" You screamed, your arms stretching out to push him away, but before you realized it he was on the floor. You had somehow managed to use the force to knock Kylo Ren off of his feet. You felt your insides turn to stone at the very thought of the consequences you would face for pulling such a feat.

Kylo looked up at you, his very own look of surprise cast over him.

"I-I'm sorr-No." He began, pushing himself back up before looking down at you once more.

"You just proved how immensely powerful you could be if you would just let go." He pointed out, and with a swish of his cape, he had left.

You looked down at your hands, shakingly and unnerved by the fact you had just used your powers for such violence. The First Order was slowly picking your morals apart piece by piece. You were a slow-burning monster of rage deep within, and they knew this. They planned to take advantage of it.

Alas, you were more than determined to not let them get ahold of you. You had vowed you would die before picking a side.

This would be the first and last time Kylo Ren would catch you vulnerable. You swore it.

-

Days turned into weeks, and every day Kylo visited you in your cell. On the third week, he actually managed to whisper a gentle apology to you. It took you by surprise, but it was a welcomed surprise. You accepted it, but warned him he still walked on extremely thin ice in your book. There was no happiness in acting sour to the person who held you captive. You were still enraged about your family, but there was no point in endless fits of rage. It would only give The First Order what they wanted.

You heard your name being called from your sleep, blinking your eyes open to Kylo Ren once more. This was how you woke up every morning.

You sighed as you rubbed your eyes, sitting up reluctantly. Kylo, though, surprised you by telling you to stay where you were. He commanded for a guard to unlock the cell door, then entered with his cape flourishing behind. You furrowed your eyebrows, but he said nothing. Instead, he sat down at your bedside, looking over at you with the softest look you had ever seen him hold.

He called out your name, and it felt like you were being caressed by his words alone.

"I wish to be able to trust you." He whispered, frowning slightly. "I want you to still train. I would at least like to show you how much power you could actually hold. Maybe then you will see." He muttered. "But I cannot do that without your compliance to compromise." He added on.

You nodded slowly, giving a small sigh. "This cell is getting a bit cramped." You muttered.

You saw a hint of a smile, but he continued on. "I'm willing to offer you the spare room inside of my quarters, but I cannot allow that if you don't agree to not escape."

You hesitated for a moment. In your eyes, that was a big commitment. All you wanted to do was to be home and away from this stupid ship. "Will I get actual food?" You tried to joke to distract yourself from the intruding thoughts.

Kylo sighed. "I will have a stormtrooper bring you better quality food, yes."

You couldn't help but give a smile. "Then it's a deal, Ren."

He bit his lip slightly. "You know if you try and escape, I will have no choice but to kill you this time."

You faltered, looking up at him. You had gotten away with being harmed by Kylo so many times the words almost felt like a lie, but you nodded anyways. "I understand."

Kylo nodded. "I'll guide you to your new quarters then." With that, he stood up, and started to walk outside of the cell.

"If you keep acting like a softy towards me I might just become more powerful than you, Ren." You cracked another joke, overjoyed to be stepping out of your suffocating cell.

Kylo turned to you, and for a moment you regretted what you said. What if you had offended him?

You just saw a smile from Kylo, then those two teasing words.

"We'll see."