BTS MAKNAE LINE ONESHOTS

Jungkook-Not Ready

A/N: hey all! what is your favorite song from the persona album other than boy with luv? mine has got to be mikrokosmos!

omg yikes i tried to write something intimate but i feel like it's cringE

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His soft lips traveled tenderly down your neck, yearning for more access. You let a few noises escape your mouth without hesitation as your fingers became tangled in his hair. Eyes closed and eyes shut, it was just touch at the moment and nothing more.

He moves against your lips once more, engulfing you into a feeling no other than a blissful one yet essential need. He takes off his shirt, exposing his toned abs and arms, causing you to gulp— not that you haven't seen them before anyway, but in this moment, everything just felt sexier.

He props his hands by your shirt, quickly taking off your shirt, leaving you in a bra and feeling bare. He continues to plant soft kisses along the traces of your skin as he unclips your bra strap.

However, the thoughts, voices, images, worries, and sudden urge to cry pops in your head all at once, causing you to push him away.

"I'm so sorry! Did I go too fast? What is it?" He panics, slowly crawling back to you. Your chest heaves up and down, and you cover your bare top with your arms. You start to shiver and shake your head frantically, causing Jungkook to completely soften. He grabbed his own shirt, slipping it on as he afterwards grabbed yours and slowly put it back on you.

You start to cry loudly— sob. Tears gushed out of your eyes and your heart squeezes in disappointment once again. You look down, avoiding his expression.

"I'm-I'm sorry. I— This has been the third time already and I can't ever do it. I'm so sorry. Y-You must feel so frustrated with me and I'm so sorry I don't-"

Jungkook closes his eyes and shakes his head at the sight of you breaking down, "Shh, stop. It's okay. I can wait. I'm sorry for going too fast." He says with concern flooding his eyes which causes you to cry harder.

"You're not! I'm sorry! Everything just flies back into my mind when I'm conscious! I feel so dirty and disgusting and-and-and I can't! I feel so ugly when I try doing this and I'm sorry!" You yell, completely frustrated at yourself. "I-I don't mean to keep delaying this. I'm so sorry. This has been the third time and I'm sure you're tired of it already and I-I just-"

Jungkook holds both of your hands, leaning forward to kiss your lips, cutting you off. He bounces back, "Y/N, I love you. You're the most beautiful girl I've ever been with. I love everything about you. If I didn't, I wouldn't be here. I promise I'll be by your side. Don't be so frustrated. We will do it someday. I'll wait for you until you are ready. I am not pushing you into doing anything you don't want to." He sweetly explains, slightly squeezing your hands in reassurance. He wipes your tears away, kissing your cheeks.

"You're so beautiful. Your body is beautiful and everything about you is absolutely gorgeous. I promise it's the way I see it." Jungkook says, trying to meet your gaze.

You let out a whimper, "I don't deserve you..." You whisper, leaning forward to his shoulder. He completely embraces you, holding you tight and in that moment, everything felt super safe.

"I love you," He softly whispers, caressing your hair. Guilt starts to eat at you making more tears silently form in your eyes. "I'm so frustrated. I want to enjoy it, but the voices- they I-"

"We will do it when you're ready. It's okay. You need time and I understand... Just don't make me wait until I'm 50 and we have no children." He jokes, causing you to smack his chest. The two of you laugh, falling into each other's arms again.

He takes a glance at your face, wiping your cheeks with his thumbs. Your lips curve upwards, sniffling. You lean forward, kissing his lips.

"Wanna watch a movie?" He asks, tilting his head. You nod, knowing that meant cuddling.

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The room was dark and the only thing lighting up the room was the tv. There was fleece blanket across the both of you and you leaned your head comfortably on Jungkook's shoulder. His arm lazily drapes around your body, eyes focused on the animation.

Jungkook felt your stare.

"What's wrong?" He asks, raising his eyebrows. Tears well up in your eyes again, causing his face to soften. "S-Sorry, I don't know why I'm so emotional today. I'm not crying." You say, shakily.

He sighs, bringing you into his chest. "Don't cry."

"I'm not!"

"Uh-huh. Tell that to the tears that are currently soaking my shirt." He retorts, shaking his head. You shake your head gently against his stomach, softly laughing.

After a few minutes, he leans down to peck your head. "Y/N?"

"..."

"Y/N?"

He turns off the tv, setting the remote by the nightstand. He moves the blanket closer to you, hugging you. "Good night sleepy." He whispers.