Friends With Benefits: New York ✓

[Chapter Fifty]

Chapter Fifty

I waited a couple days to go over and start packing, I didn't know his schedule anymore so I couldn't predict when he would be there but when I went over I didn't see his car and then when I went upstairs I didn't see him.

I went into our old bedroom and I didn't see any signs of another girl being there and I sighed in relief as I went into my room and grabbed my suitcase and started packing some clothes, those were the big necessity right now, that and my electronics.

I was in our old room when he came in and I turned to see him leaning against the door frame in his scrubs and he looked terrible. He looked like he had two black eyes and was a few seconds from breaking into tears; the sight hurt me to see.

"Please don't go." He bit his lip and swallowed hard

I looked away and adverted my eyes

"Call Emily, I'm sure she's more than willing to come live with you again." I said bitterly and I heard a sharp inhale.

"Why won't you just listen to me?" he asked and my eyes shot to him because he was angry, what fucking right did he have to be angry with me?

"Excuse me!" I stood up and glared at him

"You're so fucking quick to just end it that you won't even listen!"

"Well I'm so fucking sorry I don't want to be with someone who was hooking up with his ex while his girlfriend at the time was figuring out if she was going to be pregnant with his fucking child! What if I was pregnant, Aiden?" I asked annoyed and he shrugged

"Honestly, part of me wished that you were. I would love to have a baby with you." he said and my eyes widened in shock and anger and confusion and a whole array of emotions.

"You've been screwing your ex behind my back!" I accused and his jaw twitched

"I have not had sex with Emily. I kissed her, yes! I shouldn't have let her in and I shouldn't have kissed her but I wanted to make sure that there was nothing there, I was going to tell you." he looked down because he knew it was a bullshit excuse.

"Yeah and when were you going to tell me?" I asked annoyed

"After the weekend, I swear to you I was going to." he looked pleadingly into my eyes and I looked away because I couldn't let him see me break.

"No." I said and he reached for me but I smacked his hand away

"Chelsie please, I love you, you! I don't want to be with her I just miss you. I'm sorry I did it and I swear to you that it will never happen again just please, don't leave me." he put his hands on either side of my face and made me look at him and I felt the wet drops sliding down my face

"No." I whispered weakly and he leaned in and I went to pull back when he pressed his lips to mine and kissed me desperately and I let him kiss me until I couldn't breathe and I struggled away from him. When I got my hands on his shoulders I pushed myself away from him and I slapped him

"How fucking dare you!" I yelled at him angrily and he just looked at me, broken.

"I know." He whispered pained and I couldn't help myself when I nearly jumped into his arms and locked my lips with his again. my arms were wrapped tightly around him and his were wrapped firmly around my waist.

He kissed me roughly and I felt my back hit the bed as I attacked the ties of his scrubs and he pushed my dress up my waist. If my mind was working right now I would have pushed him off me and ran for the door but for some reason it just wasn't and as he sunk into me I clung to him desperately like I needed him to survive.

I needed to feel him inside me, to feel his body against mine and see the pleasure written all over his face. I missed him and i needed him.

He pushed in and pull back roughly and we were acting on what felt like a primal instinct as his hands gripped at the fabric of my dress and I dug my nails into his back as he pushed my body to a new height.

Sex with Jake was incredible but he wasn't Aiden, he could never be Aiden. No one could compare to Aiden, ever.

I yelled out when I found my release and I pulled him right off that cliff of ecstasy with me and he laid panting over me making me close my eyes as the reality of what we did washed over me, that was not a good idea in the slightest.

I pushed him off me and fixed my dress as I stood and frantically grabbed for my stuff when he grabbed my hands stopping me.

"Stay with me princess." He wrapped his arms around me and pulled my body against his and he was killing me right now, I was so fucking weak and pathetic

"I don't trust you, I can't trust you."

"I promise you that you can, I swear that kissing her was nothing, I felt nothing." I pulled from his arms and wiped my eyes

"Yeah well it's too late." I said grabbing my bags and walking towards the door

"Why? Why can't we fix this, why can't we work it out. If this were a marriage instead of a just dating we would, why can't we just take it seriously like that and fix it?" he pulled at his hair in frustration and I knew what I had to do.

He would never forgive me for having sex with Jake and I needed him to let me go.

"I had sex with Jake the night I left here." I turned to face him and he froze where he was standing and I regretted saying it because he looked like I just ripped his heart out.

"Are you with him now?" he asked and I shook my head

"No, he's with Jules now." I wouldn't lie to him and I waited for the name calling to come, to tell me I was a slut or something. To this day I didn't regret what I did, it happened and I made the choice and now there was no doubt now, we definitely aren't meant for a relationship

"How many times?" his voice broke

"Once." I shrugged and he bit his lip before he looked up at me

"I don't care. I forgive you." he said and I shook my head as more water welled up in my eyes

"You can't." I said and he stepped towards me

"I do Chelsie, please just, let's work this out." He said and I shook my head and backed away, it was supposed to make him hate me and he doesn't!

"We can't!" I yelled at him

"I bought this for you; I saw it and thought of you, I was going to give it to you this weekend." He walked to the side and picked up a box that was about eight inches long and a couple tall and wide and handed it to me.

When I went to open it he put his hands over mine.

"Open it when you get home. I love you Chelsie Alexander and just think about things please. I don't hate you for sleeping with him I just want you to come home to Me." he kissed my forehead and left me standing by the door with my heart torn.

I was torn between wanting to stay and forgive what he did and not being able to. I put the box in my purse and went out to my car before driving to Jakes but he wasn't home. I put my suitcase on the bed but there was one thing I needed to see first.

I grabbed the box; it looked like one that would hold a bracelet or something. I sat on the couch and opened it and my heart broke all over again, it was absolutely beautiful.

And then I was pissed off again, what the fuck is his problem!