Old and Unwanted

Feelings

Tim is not coming back.

Paulit-ulit sa utak ko yun sinabi ni Kurt. I wanted to ask him about it before leaving completely pero naisip ko na baka it’s just a ploy to lure me na kausapin ko siya ulit.

Ang problema hindi maalis sa isip ko yun sinabi niya at talagang di ako mapakali.

So I tried to text and call Tim again and again. Kung dati nagriring ang phone niya ngayon it is out of reach. Gustung-gusto ko ng sagutin yun nagsasalita na  ‘The number you have dialed is out of reach’  pikang-pika na ko. Grr!!

♪♪Knew the signs wasn’t right I was stupid for a while

Swept away by you

Now I feel like a fool

So confuse my heart’s bruised

Was I ever loved by you?♪

Napalingon nalang ako sa kabilang jeep na nakatigil na katabi ng jeep namin. Traffic kase. At ang lakas ng sounds ni Manong Driver sa kabilang jeep.

Dinial ko ulit yun number niya.

‘The number you have dialed is out of reach.’

♪♪Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be♪

 

Napailing nalang ako sa kanta. Nanadya ba talaga?!

♪Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be♪♪

 

Hindi ko alam kung anung nangyari pero dahil na rin sa kanta na Out of Reach bumaba ako ng jeep.

Naiinis na ako.

Ang sama sama ng loob ko.

Hindi na siya babalik?

Bakit wala akong alam?

Matapos ang lahat? Matapos ang lahat ng alin Margaret? Meron ba kayong relasyon? Bwiset naman oh.

Pero hindi yun eh. Secretary ako pero wala akong alam na nag-resign na ang boss ko sa hospital?

Asan ka na ba, Tim?

“Hoy Miss! Kung ano mang drama mo pwede ba umalis ka dyan sa gitna ng kalsada? Gusto mo bang mahuli ng MMDA?!”