Temptation

Chapter 49

Beth's POV


After my father and I eat dinner we talk more. He tells me how he wishes he could go back in time and never feel tempted to do the things he did.

I am still a little angry at my father for even cheating on my mother in the first place. But in a way, I can't blame him. He was tempted . Just like I am tempted around harry.

The temptations that hold within me are unbearable. When I'm around him it seems as though the air around me is thickening, the sun shines brighter and my smile gets wider.

Not now, at least.

I'm not sure if I'd be happy or upset to see Harry again.

I'm angry that he just dropped the subject as if it was nothing. It might have been nothing to him but it was more than everything to me. I meant every word I said whether he believes me or not.

"Temptation" I say aloud.

"What?" My father says. I realize I said the words out loud and he heard me.

I shake my head. "It's nothing." I lie.

"Temptation; why did you say that?"
He knows I said it for a reason.

"I don't know." I sigh.

"Alright," he stands from the couch and grabs both of our plates and glasses. "I'm going to do these dishes."

I nod and get off of the small cushioned chair. "I think I'm going to go to bed,"

"Bed? You've been up there for days." He laughs.

"I haven't really gotten much sleep lately." His smile fades from realization.

"A-are your nightmares back?" He remembered.

I hesitate to answer. I don't want my dad worrying about me and coming into my room every ten minutes to check up on me. I nod slowly.

"I'll be fine." I smile and kiss him on the cheek goodnight.

"Let me know if you need to for anything, I mean it."

"I will. Goodnight dad."

"Goodnight kiddo." He kisses the top of my head and I make my way upstairs to the lonely bedroom.

Before I get under the covers I check my phone to see if there is any messages or missed calls.

Just as I thought, there is none.

--

I jump out of bed covered in sweat. My breathing is the only thing heard along with the pounding of my chest.

He did it, he actually did it. In the nightmare he actually raped me. Full on rape, no help, no harry. Tiffy, harry, and more unrecognizable people just stood there, laughing and taking pictures.

Tiffy snapped a photo on the Polaroid camera and out came a picture. She waved it in the air to let it process as she laughed.

It felt so real, the pain I felt seemed so real that I can still feel the aching. It's like it actually happened. The pressure I have building in between my legs makes me want to cry. I squeeze my legs together to try to ease the tension but it only makes it worse.

I decide not to move. I lay my back down on the bed and try to steady my breathing back to normal, the pain still throbbing and not going away.

I turn my head to look at the clock.

'3:57'

I know I'm not going to be able to sleep again. Since my father took me shopping the day I got here, I gather all of the clothes from the closet and place them in the black duffel bag. I still manage to fold the clothes neatly and the zipper is hard to close but I still get it to close. I don't plan on staying here forever, but I don't want to go back to my mother either.

After I'm done, I just lay in the bed and stare into the dark room. After hours of just laying down, I see the room getting brighter from the sun that is rising to its new day.

I forced my eyes to stay open for hours. The burning from straining to stay open wont go away, I just rub my eyes and hope that it'll decrease as more time goes by.

I leave the room And go down the stairs where I meet my dad who is sitting at the table with a cup of coffee and the morning paper.

"Good morning." He says.

"Good morning." I yawn and walk to the refrigerator to get some orange juice.

" do you want to go to the beach today?"

I laugh. "No."

"Why not?"

"Not in the mood." I tell him and take a sip from the glass.

"You haven't been in the mood for a lot of things lately."

He right.

"I know." I whisper and sit down next to him at the table.

**


Harry's POV



"Just wait here," Abby is being a pain in the ass. She keeps going in almost every fucking store she sees. The only reason I'm even at this shit mall is so I could get something for my mum for her birthday.

While Abby is in Victorias fucking secret I lean against the railing outside of all the stores. People walk past, little kids kicking and screaming probably because they couldn't get anything they wanted. Couples walk past holding hands and laughing together as my mind suddenly goes back to Beth.

It's been four days.

Four days I haven't even tried to call or text her.

Four days of complete and utter shit; misery,actually.

I've caught myself numbers of times trying to pick up the phone to call her but I couldn't bring myself to do it.

She can't seriously be falling in love with me , right? She just can't.

I try not to think too much about the subject but I can't help it when I look over to the other side of the mall and see that weird ass store I got her bracelet from.

I wonder if she's still wearing the bracelet.

My body speaks before my mind as I make my way over to the store. The smell of peppermint is around the room and makes me want to sneeze.

The rack of colored heart stoned bracelets are still on the rack. I look at the purple ones and touch the charms on it.

"Did she find out?" A voice behind me says.

I take my hand off of the chains and then turn around. I'm not surprised when I see the old woman who works here.

I don't answer her but I look at her as she seems to have some sort of hope look in her eyes.

"Did she?" She asks again.

"What are you talking about," I snap and she walks closer, Her eyes wide.

"The meaning of the bracelet."

"How is she supposed to know if you never told me in the first fucking place." I know I'm being rude but this woman really pisses me off.

Again, she is taken back by my choice of language but I don't care.

"Come with me." She walks away and I follow, she better not be wasting my time.

She walks over to a book shelf that is behind the desk. She scans the shelf up and down and side to side. My patience is wearing too thin when she takes her damn sweet time.

"Ah," she places her finger on the book and slides it out. "Here it is." She smiles at me and I roll my eyes.

She flicks through the pages and I wait impatiently.

"The legend of Goliath..." No shit, I Remember her saying this last time. "It's color and stone means something different within each bracelet."

"And?"

"Look," she points to the paragraph talking about the light purple, black stoned heart bracelet.
I look over towards the book and read the writing.


'The ancient Egyptians discovered the Goliath legend. The light purple metal chain symbolizes the warmness of each persons heart. The black stone was found by the husband of queen-' I stop reading.

"Where the fuck is this going?" I groan and grab the back of my neck.

"Read the last sentence." The old woman Tells me.

I don't have time for this shit.

I take the book again and read the last sentence in the small paragraph.

'The bracelet should be given to someone special. Hence, the bracelet meaning love.'

I close the book hard and fast, making the woman jump slightly.

"Bull fucking shit." I toss the book away and she grabs it back into her wrinkled hands.

"Excuse me?"

"That book doesn't know shit. I bought that bracelet because you told me to, not because I'm in love with her."
I'm not even sure if I could believe my own words.

She shakes her head.

"No, I see it." This woman is creeping me out. "I see it in your eyes."

"Listen lady, you don't know what the hell-"

"Four days." She interrupts me. What?

"Wh-" I begin but she stops be again.

"You haven't spoken to her in four days. Your eyes show it all. I can read you."

Is this lady a fucking psychic or some shit?

"You do love her, you always have." She begins again. I want to tell her to shut the fuck up and leave the shop but I can't.

"You don't want to admit it because you still cant get over how she could love someone like you. you wonder how someone so delicate and innocent as her can love someone so dark and rude. You're scared that one day you'll hurt her so bad that she'll leave you and you'll end up being the one that's hurt. You've loved her since day one. Even when you weren't nice to her, you were falling." She whisper to me.

My heart is racing a thousand times a minute. This woman is scaring the shit out of me but she's right, I think.

I am afraid that ill hurt Beth in the long run, I know I will without a doubt.

"You know I'm right." She says.

"Okay, okay, stop." I rub my forehead.

"Go get her."

Before I could answer someone walks in the shop and the clicking of heals are loud.

"Harry what the hell!? I thought you left me." Abby storms in and says.

I pay no attention to her as I can only look at the woman before me. Her eyes are glaring into mine before she puts the book back onto its shelf.

"Give me a minute." I tell Abby.

"Come on -" Abby begins to wine.

"I said give me a damn minute, Abby!"

She huffs and walks out of the shop.

"How do you know that?" I ask the old woman.

"I told you, I see it in your eyes."

"Well, I suggest you get some help or some shit because that's not fucking normal." I tell her and she shakes her head and looks away from me.

This woman is right. It may have taken me four days and a weird ass woman to make me realize.

It's the darkness and guilt inside that covered up the truth.

I- I love her.

My mind is racing back in forth from everything that seems to be happening.

Ive been a dick. I haven't talked to her in days because of everything, she must hate me, I know she has to be by now . I bet she hasn't slept in days because of my ass of a move.

I've been a dick to this woman as well. I'm being a complete dick when I should be thanking her.

"Thank you." I say and the woman looks back at me. She smiles and nods her head.

"Go get her." She says and I smile back and leave the shop.

Abby sits on a bench waiting for me, I don't stop as I quickly start to make my way to the exit of the mall.

"Where are you going," I hear Abby call, her heels clicking again as she increases her pace to catch up to me.

I don't answer her but leave the mall and to the parking lot. As soon as I get to the car, Abby jumps in after and I quickly turn the car on,backing out and stepping on the gas.

"Will you slow the hell down and tell me what's going on?" I don't complete half of her request as my foot stays on the gas.

"I need to get to Beth."

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