Missing you (Book One)

Chapter 33 : Better

Jealousy a very sick emotion to have, too bad everyone has it. the look in his eyes. I could tell what he was thinking, I let out sigh and closed my eyes for a bit. Jay told them he wasn't feeling well and went to bed.

Kass left telling me too let Jay know she is worried about him. Oliver stayed for awhile, sitting beside me chatting like we known each other for year's. " Think ima get going' e says shooting me a look, "Oh okay drive safe" I say waving at him.

He nod's and hand's me a piece of paper "Call me" He says winking and strolling off down the street. I put the paper in my pocket letting out a deep breath I walk inside of the house. I'm about too head into my room when a voice scares the living shit out of me.

"Lock up"  Jay's voice echos through the house. "Jay don't scare me like that" I say looking up at him, "Sorry goodnight". "No wait, what was that ? back there you ditched me out there with you're ex and that guy".

"You didn't seem to mind" He says looking over at the door, "Whatever goodnight" I say walking past him only to be caught short by a pair of strong arms. Next thing I know his lip's are on mine, kissing me roughly like i might disappear.

I shove at his chest lightly wanting him too let go of me. Why fight it ? There was a guy who wanted me.. and Maybe I wanted him back. After all we were high school sweethearts, I moan as his teeth bite my bottom lip.

He sit's on the table moving his arms around my back, I wrap my arms around his neck putting my finger's into his hair. This was so familiar.. I pulled away looking beside him, "sorry but I had too" He mummers

My heart was racing, why did he have to do that .. I'm not ready for a relationship he should know that. I push him away and run too my room, I can't believe we just kissed.. My face heated up and I grabbed my bag.

I needed to get out for awhile clear my head, maybe get a coffee.. yeah a coffee. I walked out slowly closing the door silently. I hurried down the road to a near by coffee shop and walked inside. "Hello" a voice greeted me.

"Hi, can I just get a Caramel Mocha" I say handing the money over to a young girl. "Thanks" I say as I stand in line waiting for my coffee. Finally I get it and sit down in a booth letting the cold air hit my face. Wow..

I can't believe Jay kissed me, I mean.. maybe he didn't really want to I was just there so he did. I don't want to be a rebound. Hell I don't want to be a second choice, This was all too confusing .. I needed time.

I just got out of a long relationship.. a horrible one at that. I knew from here on .. I would get a job.. and start dancing again.

~Whoop I'm going to start dedicating chapters too people c:!♥