Hospital Beds and Memories (All Time Low Fanfiction | Jack Barakat)

Just Shut Up

My bed was so comfortable. Nice and warm and oh so comfortable. I was never going to leave this place. My blankets were wrapped around me compensating for the hugs I no longer got from Jack. I didn't get anything from Jack anymore. He was no longer in my life. The goodbye we said to each other haver my aunt's wedding was goodbye forever. I had thought about calling him or showing up at his doorstep, but I knew that wasn't going to work unless I knew how I felt and what to say. The last month I had been trying to figure out my feelings for him, if I had any feelings. Did the kiss mean anything to him? Did our friendship mean anything to him? Obviously it didn't. If one kiss could make him hate me like this, he definitely didn't care about me.

The door to my bedroom opened, bright light in. I squinted my eyes to look at the silhouette and buried my head back into my large fluffy pillow.

"Come on, wake up, it's 4pm already," Cam carefully shook me.

I groaned, "Shut up."

"You've barely left your room the last weeks, I even had to bring you food a couple of times."

"Ugh, what date is it?"

"Thursday."

"No, not day, date."

"Oh, umm, 18th of February."

I quickly got up, accidentally hitting Cameron in his face. He screeched and quickly raised his hand to his eyes. I looked around my room in a daze before I actually realised what would be going on today.

"Shit," I mumbled.

"Yeah, that was really painful," Cam whined.

"No, not that," I pushed him away and got out of my bed, "I'm going out today." I quickly opened my closet and looked through my closet. With barely any time left I decided to only grab my underwear and hurried to my bathroom.

"Oh, ok, nice to know you care about me."

I got in the shower and quickly shaved my legs and armpits for the first time since the wedding. There was no reason for me to shave anything else, I wasn't going to get lucky anyway. Plus, I still didn't know if I was or wasn't a virgin, why would I want to lose my virginity today. Why was I even thinking about this? I lathered my hair, rinsed the shampoo out and turned off the water. In no time I was dried and had my underwear on. Now was the time for me to chose an outfit again. My mind still wasn't in the mood for giving a shit, so I simply chose a gray t-shirt and light blue jeans. I wasn't trying to impress anybody.

I ran out to the kitchen and quickly grabbed an apple to eat. There was only 20 minutes till I had to be completely ready to go. I was rushing all around the loft trying to find the couple of things I really needed, of course there were also a couple things I didn't need, but I was trying to stall everything.