All For You

Doing Me - Chapter 13

Two Weeks Later

My girls were in the bathroom with me while I hurled into the toilet. Jamie held my hair back while Renee and Jazmine rubbed my back to console me. When I stopped throwing up, Jamie flushed the toilet and handed me some mouth wash. It was 9am and I'd been throwing up since last week at school. I was feeling nauseous and dizzy for about a week and a half and I didn't get checked out yet.

"I'll be back in 20 minutes." Renee said running out of the bathroom. I heard keys jingle and the front door slam but I continued to rinse my mouth.

"Its probably just food poisoning." I said sitting on the edge of the bathtub with my head in my lap.

"Food poisoning? For two weeks?" They both asked then they laughed.

"What?" I asked bringing my head up.

"Bitch you're pregnant." Jamie said making me nauseous again. I got down, kneeled over the toilet, and threw up again. I could've screamed at that moment. Why me?

Renee came back 20 minutes later breaking the awkward silence. I was thinking about the possibility of me carrying another human being inside of me and how it would affect me.

"Here." Renee said handing me a bag. I took the bag with a raised eyebrow and I pulled out 3 pregnancy test. I looked at Renee with a stank face but I proceeded to open them. They stepped out of the bathroom as I pissed on all 3 of the sticks. After I was done, I flushed the toilet and put the sticks on an old towel while washing my hands. I let them back in and we waited 15 minutes to get the results. "Two sticks means positive, one stick is negative." I repeated over and over again.

"Time's up." Renee said after we heard the beeping from all 3 of the sticks. I looked at the pregnancy test and my eyes widened. Positive, positive, and positive. I felt as if all the color drained out of my face as my body hit the cold bathroom floor.

I opened my eyes to a bright white light and I heard constant beeping. I lifted my head up to look around but I became dizzy and I layed back down. I groaned, but then I heard voices.

"She's awake!" I heard my mother say. She came rushing to my side along with my dad and my brother.

"Why am I here?" I asked.

"You passed out when you found out you were pregnant." My dad said, making me jump up all the way this time. I thought I was dreaming.

"Where the girls?" I asked, still in disbelief. This had to be a fucking dream. My parents were talking to me, looking as happy as ever, but I was zoning out. 

"They are in the waiting room and Carter is on his way." I heard Lamar say. Of course he was.

"Excuse me for a moment. " I said nonchalantly getting out of my bed, wobbling to the bathroom and holding on to things along the way so I wouldn't fall. I turned the light on in the bathroom and squinted my eyes. Bright ass lights, I thought. I took care of my business and washed my hands splashing some cold water on my face. I looked up in the mirror and saw a different person. After the incident two weeks ago, I started to feel more secure within myself, carefree, and mature. I started to worry more about me and those who truly loved me, my job, and my school work. But now, I had to start worrying about my baby as well. I was scared, but I knew that this happened for a reason.

As soon as I came out of the bathroom, I saw my parents, Lamar, and Carter, speaking to the doctor without me.

"You okay?" Carter asked me as soon as he saw me. He came to my side to assist me, but I put my hand up and walked over to the bed myself.

"Yes." I said simply. There was no need for him to act like he gave a fuck about anybody other than his unborn and Camille. He dismissed me without a care in this world, so he was getting that same treatment.

"Okay Miss Robinson," the female doctor said to me. "Your next appointment will be in 2 more weeks. By that time, you will be a month along in your pregnancy." She said. I nodded and thanked her.

"Your baby is fine. You just need to take it easy. And make sure you're eating a healthy diet." She said, writing a prescription of pre-natal pills out for me. She ripped it out of a note pad and handed it to me.

"Okay, thank you." I said smiling faintly at her. She smiled back at me and told me she'd see me in 2 weeks and I could go anytime I was ready.

"Hold on, Renee got you some clothes to change into." Lamar said going out into the waiting room to get my stuff. He and Renee, finally, became a couple a couple of days after the incident. After he smacked the shit out of Journey for playing with me and him, him and Renee got to talking and made something happen.

"Hunh," Lamar said handing me a duffle bag with clothes in it. "We gonna be in the waiting room if you need us." My mom said leaving with Lamar and my dad following behind them. Carter still sat on the couch staring at me. I ignored him before he could say anything, and went into the bathroom. I reached in my bag and pulled out a hair tie, my body wash and washcloth, my matching bra and panty set, and a cute sundress Renee picked out for me. 

After my shower, I felt so much weight off of my shoulders. All my worries washed down the drain with no more burdens. To be honest, I was happy that I was pregnant. Just another blessing God had given me. I knew Carter would be a good daddy just by the way I saw him treat Camille. But him and I were just going to have to be co-parents.

After getting dressed, I walked back into the room with my duffle bag. Carter was still on the couch staring at the floor. I cleared my throat getting his attention because he looked lost. He looked up at me apologetically and spoke.

"Lanay I'm sorry for-"

"I don't care." I said nonchalantly. I grabbed my bag and walked out of the hospital room.

"Wait." He said grabbing my arm as he came into the hallway. I snatched my arm back and folded them, attempting to listen to him.

"I'm sorry for blowing things out of proportion a couple weeks ago. I didn't know the nigga was gay." He said as if that was supposed to make me feel any better.

"Even if he wasn't gay, I thought we trusted each other. But it doesn't matter anymore, we're done right?" I asked him and he immediately said no. "I'm not doing this right now,"

"Can we at least have a conversation?" He asked me, but I was too overwhelmed with different emotions. He ain't want to have a conversation when he broke up with me.

"Of course we can," I started seeing his eyes light up. "About how we gone co-parent." I continued. He sighed sadly, looking me directly in my eyes.

"Is that what you really want?" He asked me. Of course I didn't, but too much was happening behind this nigga. I ain't know what to do. "I'm not doing this back and forth shit with you Carter."

"I don't want to go back and forth Lanay, but I miss you. Now that you got my baby, you think I'm about to just let you go?" He asked me. I stood there with my arms still crossed, looking away from him before I started to get emotional again. "Can I at least take you to get something to eat?" 

"Fuck you." I retorted, walking off to go be with my family.