Blue Howard (boyxboy)

Video Games

Chapter 43 – Video Games

Where does this leave us? I'm happily back, but there is still a sickening feeling in my stomach as if something's about to happen. But no, I won't give up that easily now. I will cling to Anton no matter what, and I'll draw strength from the happiness radiating from Jocelyn who couldn't be happier as she sits on the phone with Lilly, discussing all the latest details concerning mine and Anton's relationship.

"Oh, they couldn't be better, I think," she says, twisting a lock of hair around her fingers. "Um, they're on the couch watching a movie. Yes, holding hands. I know, it's crazy how good they are for each other!"

It's weird hearing that, but also comforting. Anton's smirk grows wider as he looks down at me. He's playing with my fingers. "Do you believe in fate?"

I snort. "Probably not."

Anton bites his lip. "Me too, I think. But just so you know, if you did, I would too," he says.

I look back at him, his smile brightens up the whole room, and nod to myself. Yes, this is the boy I love.

I'm lying on my back in Anton's lap and he won't stop playing with my fingers, even when I try to pull my hand back, he doesn't let me.

Jocelyn ends the call and walks to the couch. "Ew, you guys make me sick," she says, raising her eyebrow. "You're just too adorable." She tousles Anton's hair and sits on the floor in front of the couch. "How about video games? You've had enough of this sappy romance story."

Anton grins and suddenly pushes me off his lap. Thankfully Jocelyn has moved closer to the TV, so I don't crash into her, but it still hurts when I land on the floor.

"Sorry, babe, I love you, but I also love video games," he says and jumps off the couch. Jocelyn is laughing as she hands the remote control to Anton. "This is called balance."

I wince when I sit up. "Well your balance is fucking painful!"

Anton sends an air kiss before he loses himself completely into the gaming world. Both he and Jocelyn are competitive and just winning isn't enough; they have to be better than the other at everything.

I rub the spot that hurts the most, but the pain fades soon, and instead comes a warm feeling that clutches at my heart. It's happiness.

It's hard to describe what I exactly feel, but there's a race of emotions, all of them positive, but at the front is happiness. I look at the boy who just is not okay with losing, and look at the girl with bouncing blonde curls who was very mean to us at first, but then warmed. The girl who welcomed me open arms to her house when I needed it, and the boy who pulled me back into his arms even after I had been the biggest screw-up.

I guess I lost control somewhere in the middle, but I got it back after all.

Most of all, I got back my original friend, who is now happy with his boyfriend. Who would've thought? I guess we made each other gay for other people. I don't know.

I have lost so much, but gained even more. It's good. We're fine, better than before.

It's going to be fun when we finally go home with Anton and face my father, who may or may not be there, too. Which would be the best way to tell him that both his sons are gay? It's going to be interesting. It's going to punch him in the face and he's going to crumble. Perhaps he'll then pay more attention to us? Or maybe he'll kick us both out of his lives, he's good at that. Yes, he's definitely mastered the skill of getting rid of people.

But I'm not going to be shaken by that. Then we'll go to mom's. It will be a surprise to her, too, but Lilly's going to explain, and mom is going to accept me, and Anton. I think she'll be glad to have two sons. At least there'll be someone to do the housework. I bet Anton knows how to fix a sink. We could paint the porch, also.

"I gotta go pee," Jocelyn says and throws the gamepad in my lap. "Finish him off, will you?"

Anton nudges me to accept the offer.

I can't say no, can I? We're in this together.

Me and him until the end of times, and it's going to be fucking great!

  A/N: I'm sad to say that this is going to be the last part. I'm thinking of posting maybe a couple of short stories, like a spin-off. Maybe I'll give you more of Evan and Lorcan. Maybe I'll tell you how all that 'coming out' came to be. Maybe I'll pair Jocelyn up with someone, or not. I don't know. 

Thank you for taking this journey with me. I had no idea in the beginning what this story was going to be. I hope it was a fun adventure, I hope you are okay with how I ended things, and how everything went in between, also :)

And if you want more boyxboy, then check out "Bad boy, good boy".

Yeah, so I guess that's it. 

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