I have such mixed feelings about writing. I love it and hate it at the same time
like i have been trying to figure out what to write for the story "Blowing Smoke" that I have up but it's harder than the ice covering my entire porch rn (S/O to the -6 Fahrenheit degree weather today!!!)
i was going to make a sexual joke about it being too hard but everything I thought of was too far even for this rant book
I s2g all the time, I really want to write, I probably should write i mean it's good 4 the brain and shit, and i probably have nothing better to do I, but I cANT GET MYSELF TO WRITE????
LIKE RN I FEEL LIKE I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY IN THIS RANT BUT I CAN'T PUT MY THOUGHTS ONTO PAPER
OR THOUGHTS ONTO THE SCREEN IDK
its like I have all of these perfectly beautifully written sentences forming in my head but then when I got to type it comes out as
the girl had really pretty hair and really pretty eyes and she was pretty cool and the boy liked girls who were pretty cool
or it comes out as Fairly Odd Parents and Sponge bob smut but I guess that's not completely a bad thing
And sometimes I feel like I am okay at writing but then I read some of my friends works and i realize my actual writing is trASH
like tf have you read @harrehstulls book Madness? that shit is like and angel vomited silk onto a bed of roses and it became what is now known as Madness
And tbh i used to get annoyed at ppl who took forever to update a story but that shit is hard man. Especially if you have writers block it seems like cutting of you toes would be easier than writing a good sentence
Writing short little scenes are easy and ideas are easy, but putting them all together is so hard I cry
i also feel like im having deja vu rn so I might have ranted about this topic before but idrc bc i needed to rant abouT IT AGAIN
-Mare :)xx
