#WhatWouldItBe
"Woah, thank you for this!"
I was snapped to reality when somebody spoke in front of me. Mabilis kong inayos ang sarili at tiningnan ang nagsalita.
"Nah, it's all good. I almost bought coffee," humalakhak ako sa sinabi.
Paul's face contorted a little bit, giving a best view of his five o'clock shadow and his cleft chin.
"Really?"
"Yeah, uhmmm, I didn't know kasi na game pala ang pupuntahin namin, mabuti na lang hindi ko pa nabili," if someone throws a mirror at me, panigurado sobrang pula na ng mukha ko.
God, this is the first time I'm talking to someone that is completely stranger to me. Nale only introduced him as Paul McArtte and he's from ICCT, may laban sila against RST today.
"Coffee will do rin naman," humalakhak siya. "Stefan right? Nale was like, choppy kanina, I hope I'm saying it right."
"Yup! Just Stefan so you will not have a hard time,"
I don't know how many minutes or seconds we're looking at each other. Isang pito ang nagpatigil sa aming dalawa.
He casually laughed and put down his towel, "You sure you'll enjoy the game?"
"Yep! Just go on, I'll be good here,"
Matagal na naman niya akong tinitigan, "Later?"
Tumawa ako, "Sure,"
And I watched him jog to the middle. Nagtagpo uli ang tingin namin at kinindatan niya pa ako. I looked away so he won't see that I'm really red now.
Did Nale experienced this too before? Sana man lang pala sinabihan niya ako!
Hindi pa nag-s-start ang game dahil wala pa ang isang team. It's a men's volleyball match, I lied to Paul that I'll be great here.
Sa totoo lang, wala pa akong napapanood na live games ng ibang school. Sa UW kasi ay sa TV o Facebook ko lang napapanood.
Basically, this is the first time that I'm watching live. Dito pa sa RST.
Speaking of RST, hinanap ko ang team nila pero sila pa ang wala sa gitna. Kaya hindi pa nagsisimula. I grabbed my phone to see if Nale texted me back, iniwan ba naman kasi ako pero instead of seeing a message from friend, iba ang nakita ko.
Trent Allsen
Good luck ang hiningi ko pero nakikipag-usap ka sa iba... my heart is in pain :(((
Hindi dapat ako matatawa pero natawa ako sa huli niyang sinabi. If my calculations were right, today is Thursday and Thursday din ang binaggit ni Trent sa commercial nila about sa mangyayaring game.
Ngayon ko lang nafigure-out. And I don't know if I should be happy or not.
Wala naman akong plano magreply pero patipa na ang daliri ko nang pumito ang sinuman mula sa paligid.
There, we saw the other team jogs into the middle court. Tinago ko ang phone dahil worthless na iyon.
Sinubukan kong hanapin si Paul mula sa team nila pero iba ang nahanap kom
Trent's stares are boring holes in my soul now. Kailangan ko pang mag-iwas para hindi na iyon maramdaman.
Did I asked him to watch over us?! Hindi siya ang pinunta ko rito!
Thank God the game started, wala talaga akong idea about how volleyball works kaya tahimik lang ako nanonood. But every time ICCT garnering points, pumapalakpak ako.
It's bad because even if I'm not directly looking at him, ramdam ko ang masasamang bato na tinatapon niya sa akin.
The game continues until Trent was the one to serve the ball. He's wearing the same one from what he sent, but now, may bandana siya which reveales his pale forehead coated in sweats.
Napalunok ako. God.
While he's doing prayers or what to the ball, umangat ang mata ko sa itaas na mga upuan. From there are groupb of girls, screaming their lungs out while cheering for the one I just looked at.
Sikat pala 'to. Hindi ko batid.
And when he was about to position for serving, sumulyap siya sa gawi ko or I'm just imagining things when he murmured words I didn't get.
The ball flies onto the net and hindi ko alam kung anong mahika ang ginawa niya dahil bumagsak mismo sa side ni Paul iyon! Too bad because Paul didn't had the chance to mine or pass it to the other side.
Because his hand slipped on the ball, causing the ball to slipped sa outside. RST garnered a points to that. Kung tama ako ng hula.
Nakaawang ang labi ko na sinundan ng tingin si Trent. Hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman! Paul loses some points and from now, masama na ang timpla ng mukha niya.
Inaalo siya ng ibang team mates niya, napako ang tingin niya sa akin. I quickly showed him my two thumbs, saying it's okay.
"You can bawi later!" I assured him.
There's a small smile formed on his lips. Kahit papaano ay napalagay ako sa nakita.
Kung kanina, malaki ang ngisi ni Trent ngayon ay iba na naman. Kahit kinakausap sila ng coach nila, nasa akin ang mata niya. Bakit hindi siya nakikinig?!
I stared at him back, siya ang naunang bumitaw. Hmph! If I know, sinadya niya 'yun!
***
Unfortunately, talo ang team nila Paul.
Ang mga nanonood na boto sa RST ay nagsasaya pa rin kahit ten minutes pa lang simula nang matapos ang game. Nakaupo pa rin ako, hindi alam ang gagawin.
Kaunti lang ang lamang ng scores nila, and it's not Paul's fault kung bakit nangyari iyon. Pero mukhang hanggang ngayon ay sarili niya ang bline-blame.
Damn, Trent.
Paul McArtte:
Meet me at back rooms, please?
Tatayo na sana ako nang makita ko na sabay sila ni Trent na may text sa akin.
Hinanap ng mata ko si Trent at nakita na nasa kabilang side siya ng bleachers, nakaupo at hawak ang phone.
Hindi doon napako ang tingin ko, kundi sa babae na nasa harapan niya. Nakatalikod ito sa akin kaya hindi ko makita ang mukha.
It looks like she's saying something on him pero hindi nakikinig ang isa. He's just looking at his phone, maybe waiting for me to reply?
Umigting ang panga ko sa namataan. Mabilis kong sinarado ang phone, hindi binasa ang text niya dahil si Paul ang pakay ko ngayon.
Sure, he can handle himself! Panalo na sila, e! Paul's the one who needed someone today!
Mabagal ang lakad ko, for sure ay hindi ko naman makikita si Trent dito kasi nasa court pa siya, e!
Naghanap ako ng mga kagaya ni Paul na naka varsity ng ICCT. When I find what room their occupying, nagtanong ako if Paul is inside.
Thank God mabait 'yung lalaki at tinawag kaagad ang kasamahan. "Pare, may naghahanap sa'yo!"
Isang tawag lang ay nasa harapan ko na siya bigla. Napaatras ako dahil muntikan na niyang maapakan ang sapatos ko.
He smells nice kahit na hindi pa rin siya nagpapalit ng suot. Balot pa rin siya sa pawis and kapansin-pansin ang mabilis na paghinga niya.
"Oh, I don't know what to give to cope up with loss, maybe this will do?" Inangat ko ang paper bag na may laman na pagkain. Bumili ako kanina, thirty minutes bago matapos ang game.
Nagutom din ako at pakiramdam ko naubos lahat ng energy ko kakatapon ng masasamang tingin kay Trent, e! He played not bad pero.. basta! Nakakaubos ng energy!
"Sorry.." he muttered in low voice. "We lost, nakakahiya.." inabot niya ang leeg at tumawa.
"Halla, don't feel sorry. Hindi naman kita tinawanan or what," ngumiwi ako. Gah. I don't know what to say!
Kinuha niya ang bigay ko at tiningnan ang nasa loob. My hand is sweating kasi baka ayaw niya! Wala talaga akong alam, e!
"If it's not okay, I can buy anoth—" hindi ko natapos ang sasabihin dahil bigla niya akong hinila.
"P-paul, where are we going?" taka kong sabi.
"We'll eat," there's a grin on his face when he said that.
Kailangan talaga manulak? But he said that we'll eat bu—
"Fuck.." he slowly cursed while crashing his lips on mine.
My head is still hurting because he fucking throws me at the wall and starting kissing me! But I can't focus on that kasi bumagsak na ang hawak niya and his hand is wandering through some parts of my body.
I've never been kissed in my entire life but... shit! My lips is responding to his!
My hand went to his nape and started pushing him closer to me. My body jolted when his bare hand touches my bare abdomen.
"Akala ko ba kakain t-tayo?" halos hirap kong sabi.
"God, I want you.." he whispered and continue clashing his half body to mine.
It's starting to mess now. Doon pumasok ang takot na baka may makakita sa amin! Where are we anyway?! Hindi ko alam kung saan niya ako tinulak but the room is almost pitch black that his eyed were the only one to see now.
"Shit.. I didn't planned for... this.." hirap kong sabi nang magsimula na siyang bumaba sa leegs ko.
I swear to God, I have never been kissed and touched like this! Kahit na nagpaparty kami noon, hindi naman ako nakakaranas ng ganito! Now, after the match, huh?
Paul starting to unbutton my polo and my hands did the same thing. Kinapa ko ang hem ng jersey niya at mabilis na inangat paalis sa katawan niya iyon.
His hard palm cupped my chest and another moan escaped my lips. Nasa akin na rin ang ibang pawis ng katawan niya and who am I to say no, huh?
"Paul.. T-this is not the right.." I hissed when the first contact of his tounge encircled my chest. "place.."
"I can't stop.. You're body's telling me not to stop.."
This is bad.
This is really bad.
But I can't stop.
Right before I can clutch my hand to his shorts, biglang umalingawngaw ang pagbagsak ng pinto. And there, nahiwalay sa akin ang katawan ni Paul.
Hinanap ng mata ko ang gumawa noon and I feel like melting down upon seeing.. Trent like that!
"Fuck.. Fuck.. Dito ka sa likod ko.." Paul managed to pushed me behind him to protect me from angry Trent.
"Button your shirt, Stefan! Do it now!" utos niya na mabilis ko namang ginawa. Hindi ko man alam kung bakit pero ginawa ko pa rin iyon.
And when I finally buttoned all, nawala si Paul sa harapan ko. And the next thing I knew was Trent's punching him so hard on the ground!
Parang may kung anong sirena ng bumbero akong narinig at mabilis kong tinulak si Trent palayo sa ibabaw ni Paul.
"Trent! Ano ba!" sigaw ko nang sinubukan niya abutin si Paul pero mabilis kong tinulak si Paul na mapalayo.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing?!" buwelta niya.
Nilingon ko si Paul at halos manlumo nang makita na namumula na ang labi at may basag ang isang gilid nito.
Paul's not naked now, suot na niya uli ang jersey niya na tinanggal ko kanina. Fuck.
"Find a person you can fuck with, Redido. Bakit ka nakiealam sa amin?"
I spat at Paul for saying that! "Gago ka pala, e! Alam mong bawal ang ginawa niyo pero parang proud ka pa?!"
"What? Do you think what you did a while a go is okay too? Gago! Dapat tinanggal ka dahil almost foul ang ginawa mo!"
"You fuckin—" mas lalong nagngitngit sa galit si Trent at bago pa siya makaamba sa akin o sa kay Paul, may humila na siya palayo sa amin.
Nale is pulling me na and the guy I talked a while ago is holding Paul now.
"Anong nangyari dito?!" ang coach nina Trent ang nagsalita noon.
"Coach, my friend is just included here. He has nothing to do with this," nanlaki ang mata ko sa narinig kay Nale.
What the fuck?!
Mataman ang tingin na binato sa akin ng coach. Right before he could say anything, "It's true, Coach. Kasalanan ko lahat ng nangyari," pang-ako ni Trent sa lahat.
Bumagsak ang panga ko sa narinig.
"That's true. It's only me and Redido. Stefan has nothing to do with this," pang-ako rin ni Paul sa nangyari.
Kung puwede lang kumawala kay Nale at sabihin na hindi totoo 'yun, huli na dahil palayo na ako sa pinagpupuntahan ng dalawa!
I tried to call for Trent's attention but he's not even throwing a small glance. Fuck... anong nagawa ko?