"(Y/N) JUSTIN'S IN THE HOSPITAL HE TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE"
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When I get to the hospital I see that the outside was packed with fans and paparazzi's; it was hectic. My two security guards had to help me push my way through the crowds of people just so that I can get inside the hospital. When I'm finally inside I run to the lady at the front desk and tell her who I'm; my information; and who I came for. When thats all over with; she then sends me up to the private floor Justin is on and the whole way there I had tears in my eye that were begging to be released. When I get to the private top floor, I was met with everyone. Fredo, Pattie, Jeremy, Ryan, and Za. They were all quiet but the only thing that can be heard were the little sobs that were escaping Patties mouth. I'm glad that its only the people who are really close to Justin that are here; because Justin doesn't need he's famous friends here; all he needs right now is his family. I spot an empty seat next to Fredo so I take a seat next to him.
*one hours later*
It has been one hour and still no sign of Justin. During the one hour I have been crying, crying, and crying. To the point where Fredo, Pattie, Ryan, Za, and even Jeremy had to all come over and comfort me. We prayed, held hands, and cried our eyes out, with each other in hope that Justin will be okay. I've been informed that Justin had swallowed 20 pain killer pills so right now they are pumping his stomach out; my poor baby. He is going to be in so much pain when he wakes up. This all my fault and everyone in this room knows it but no one will admit it. I cry a little bit more every time I look at the piece of paper in my hand. It's Justin suicidal latter. It was passed on to me by Ryan he said he found it when he discovered Justin's body in the bathroom. Every time I read it my heart starts to drown with guilt. "(Y/n) first off I just want to say sorry. I'm sorry for being such a mess up and not being good enough for you. You deserve better; so much better and I know that. We both know that, but the thing is I just can't accept that. I can't accept seeing you happy with a man thats not me I just can't bear it. All I wanted was for you to love me and maybe give our relationship another go but clearly that will never happen; that's why I decided to end my life. Please don't blame yourself (y/n), me taking my life was all my fault and my discussion. I just want you to know that while you're laying in bed with that other guy; I just want you know that, no matter what BlueJay will always love you.
Love
JuJu
Crying was all I did ever since I came to this hospital. I really don't know how much of this I can take. The doctor said that the amount of pills Justin took was pretty deadly and not only that, they've also noticed that Justin had a little cold which made his survival chances even worse. Justin had 47% chance of survival. Hearing that was devastated and all I can do right now is pray. I remember the song Justin and I wrote together when we were only 15 years old. I giggled a little at how cute and young we were. I smile a little as I remember my favourite line from the song. "I close my eyes and I can see a better day; I close my eyes and pray" short but very affective and thats what I'm going to do. Pray.
*20 minutes later*
20 minutes have passed and still no fucking sign of Justin. But during those 20 minutes I've been listening to cute old voicemails Justin would send me (click the video up top ^🎶) but what made me cry was the fact that this is actually the first time I've heard them. I've been ignoring all of Justin's voicemail for a year just because I was so caught up on focusing on my self. I've also written a song and decided to add the voicemail with my song. This is going to be a very special song and soon I'm going to release it just to show how in love me and Justin were/are. It's called "Love Will Remember You." It's about all the crap that me and Justin had been through. "You said you loved me I said I loved you back, what happened to that? what happen to that?"All those times Justin use to tell me how much he loved me and I'd just look pass them them. "All your promise and all them dreams we had, what happened to that? What happened to that? The time I promised Justin I'd always stick with him no matter what crap life throws at us, and I ended up breaking that promise. "Boom gone yeah we moved on even if we try to forget" We tried to move on but its hard, because we know we'll never be able forget the love we had. "Love will remember you and love will remember me". I sighed. "This is going to be a long night" I mumble to myself.
*10 minutes later*
I'm in tears. A matter of fact everyone is in tears. But not sad tears happy tears. We have been told that Justin have survived the surgery and that he woke up asking for me. My baby is a fighter. But even though Justin kept asking for me the doctor still wants Pattie and Jeremy to go in first; just because they're the parents. Next will be Ryan then Frado and Za and last but not lest me. They want me to go last because they want to give me and Justin a special alone time. Which is cool with me.
Now that everyone had finished their turn with seeing Justin it is now finally my turn. I take a deep breath in and out before going in. When I open the door I see Justin Looking down messing with the IV in his arm, so I make a sound, clearing my throat to catch his attention. When He hears me his head snaps up and soon a little smile was placed upon his lips. "You came" his said while looking at me with adoration in his eye. I scrunched my eyebrows in confusion. You came? What does he mean by "you came?" of course I came I was worried sick about him why is he so surprised? I walk over to the bed side and sit down in the small uncomfortable hospital chair next to him. "Why are you so surprised that I came Justin?" I ask him, generally confused "I didn't think you cared enough to come" he says while looking down and everything became quite until I randomly bursted out in tears for the 100th time today. "Justin please don't ever say anything like that again. I love you; I always loved you I can't even go a day without thinking of you. You were my everything and when I heard that you committed suicide I felt like my hole world was falling apart and the fact that it was all because of me made my heart sink even more." I said with tears streaming down my face uncontrollably. Justin turns his head and looks at me with sorrow in his eyes but then that sorrow turns into hurt/anger. "If you actually love me like you say you do then why did you brake up with me over a text? Why did you ignored all of my calls,text, and voicemails? WHY DID YOU GO OUT WITH ANOTHER MAN?" Justin's heart monitor starts to pick up and I have to calm him down. "Justin please calm down, please just calm down" I say as I reach my hand out to hold his and he actually takes it. He takes a deep breath and calms down a bit then says "Explain..." I sighed then say "Justin I broke up with you over a text because I'm pathetic. I did it face to face Because I didn't want to see how bad I hurted you so I decided to do it over text and I'm sorry. That is something I will never do again." I said and I feel Justin's thumb caressing my hand. I wipe the tears off the corner of my eye with my free hand then say "Justin that guys that even one is calling my new "mystery man" is actually not what you think it is. That guys is actually my bestfriend and his name is Alfie. Me and Alfie known each other for a long time and we have a lot in common and one of the things that we have in common is that we both love men." I say giving him a hint. "Ooooooh" Justin says with his mouth in a shape of a big O "yeah" I say wanting to laugh at him so bad. "I am such an idiot" Justin says in embarrassment. "No, it's okay Justin it's not your fault it was my fault. If I wasn't acting so selfish toward you for so long, you wouldn't have become so depressed. And that reminds me, why did you do it? You know....." I ask and Justin just steers in my eyes and thats when I noticed a single tear slip from his eyes. "I just.... I just didn't want to lose you. You were my everything and you being away from me for so long was making me so depressed, and I just couldn't take it anymore so I just...." He says with his voice wobbling and tears falling from his eyes. "Oh, baby" I say as I get up from my seat and sit at the side of his hospital bed. He wraps his arms around my waist and crys into my side and I just sit there caressing his hair trying to relax and calm him down. I then put my hands under his chin and gentle pulled his head up, allowing me to place my lips upon his. I then get on top of him, straddling his waist and we start making out. I can feel one of Justin's hand cupping my ass and the other rubbing my back up and down. Let's just say we got a bit carried away... *winky face*
*Patties POV*
Oh, thank God my son is okay because heaven forbid if anything happened to him. I sighed to myself and shake my as head as I think of all the bad things that could have happened to my baby boy but God saved him and I am grateful for that. Right now me and the others are still in the waiting room waiting on (y/n) because after (y/n) is done her alone time with Justin everyone will gets to go in at ones and all say our goodbye's to Justin. As we were sitting there just making small talk among each other, all of a sudden we hear the doctor running into the room Justin with a scared look in his face. My heart beat starts to pick up and I worried about what could be happing. The doctor soon came back out of the room with a smile and a sign of relief on his face."Whats going on Doc is everything okay?" Jeremy, Justin's father asks. The Doc chuckles and shakes his head "I was just in my office looking at the monitors and noticed Justin's heart beat rapidly picking up so I then rushed in to Justin's room only to see that nothing's wrong." He says but everyone was still confused "Then why was his heart beat picking up so fast?" Za says with a confused tone in his voice, but the doctor just looked at him, smirked and said "young love" then walked away.. Uh? What does that mean? We were really all confused until, we finally got it. "ooooooh" we all said at ones. "Awe. Shit Justin is getting it" Za says and everyone starts to laugh "My son is becoming a man... I think I'm gonna cry" Jeremy says. I guess (y/n) and Justin finally worked everything out. I'm so happy for them but I just hope they're using a condom. "Aha, let's go home guys I don't think (y/n) is getting out anytime soon" Justin's friend Frado says and we all agreed. I sigh to my self as I walk out the hospital "What a day"
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