Ning Xiuyuan rarely had such an emotion. After a long silence, he held Cen Li tightly in his arms and did not dare to let go for a moment.
The two of them seem to be a little short of each other. Obviously, every day is quite warm.
He now wants to have more and more than physical possession.
He always feels that Cen Li has a good impression on him, but he dares not ask. He is afraid of hearing the negative answer from the other party. I don't know when every word Cen Li says can affect his mood.
But he is not a person who cares too much about other people's opinions and is also used to it.
He seemed that he couldn't cover Cen Li's body. The temperature of the person in his arms was still cold. His thin body even hurt his hand a little. He used to feel that his stomach was raised, but now his stomach has flattened and he seems to have lost weight again. He also bought a lot of tonics and supervised Cen Li to eat more bowls of rice every day, but I still don't gain much weight. I don't know. I thought Cen Li was a terminally ill patient.
But Cen Li's physical examination report shows that this person is in good health.
The desire completely faded. Ning Xiuyuan just kissed Cen Li's lips, which made him feel that they were still a normal couple.
In the past, Ning Xiuyuan couldn't turn on the light when he slept. Now he flashes a dim yellow bedside lamp in his room every night. He found that when his eyes were covered in darkness, Cen Li's body would become stiff, and then slowly curled up.
The man lying in his arms fell asleep, and Ning Xiuyuan's head was messy.
He opened his eyes and looked quietly at the man in the dim light. I don't know what he dreamed of. Cen Li frowned. Ning Xiuyuan stretched out his hand. Before he touched Cen Li's cheek, the other party woke up.
Cen Li's voice had a little nasal sound, "... Aren't you going to work tomorrow? Why don't you sleep?"
"It's okay to go there later." It's better to build a long way.
Cen Li closed his eyes again and replied in a daze, "... Uh-huh."
He wanted to watch Cen Li for a while, as if he missed it this time and had no chance in the future.
Ning Xiuyuan's work schedule was quite regular, and he woke up early the next morning.
After discovering his movements, Cen Li also woke up as usual, and then helped him tie his tie. The shirt hanging in his clothes was ironed flat by Cen Li. Cen Li took good care of every small aspect of his life.
Cen Li was wearing an old shampooed sweater, and his elbows were worn with balls. Ning Xiu looked away and frowned, "Didn't I buy you so many clothes? Why do you wear this today?"
"You will lose it after wearing it for a few days." Cen Lidao.
Although Ning Xiuyuan was not satisfied, he didn't say anything more.
He had long forgotten that this sweater was brought from Cen Li's dormitory at the beginning, and Jiang Yan also told him to use it as a wipe, but later Cen Li robbed it back.
Ning Xiuyuan looked at it and said again, "Then throw away all those old clothes together. It also takes up a lot of space to put them. I don't think I want them if I throw them to the beggar."
"Yes."
Seeing that Ning Xiuyuan did not leave, Cen Li asked, "What else is the matter?"
"... No, you came back early. It's not a good day today."
"Okay."
Ning Xiuyuan kissed Cen Li's forehead as usual before going out to work.
Cen Li went out and wore a suit that he used to wear, which looked very cheap. The people guarding at the door couldn't help but be surprised to see him. After all, he was about to marry the young master of the Ning family. In the future, he would enjoy endless glory and wealth, which was too simple.
However, they didn't say much and said to Cen Li, "Ning Shao said that you want us to protect your safety when you go out."
Cen Li nodded.
Should we protect his safety or treat him as a prisoner?
Cen Li doesn't want to delve into these anymore.
There are shops selling ghost money, bouquets and some sacrifices around the cemetery. Cen Li bought seven white lilies. The boss told him that the meaning of the seven flowers expressed was missing his relatives. Cen Li thought in a trance that he had visited the hospital in the past and always brought a bunch of flowers.
He didn't come here during pregnancy. It has been more than half a year, but he still remembers clearly where the tombstone is.
He said to the people behind him, "Let me stay quietly with my mother for a while."
"..."
Those few people looked at each other in consternation. During this period, Cen Li behaved much more docilely in front of Ning Xiuyuan. They also thought Cen Li had figured it out. After all, there were good days, but why did he suffer those hardships? Ning Xiuyuan must have been attracted to Cen Li. He no longer beat and scolded as usual. Anyway, people will always As it changes, few people will be unconcentric about money.
"... Then call us if you have anything to do." One of the men said.
They are not very far away. They are within ten meters away from Cen Li. The weather is a little gloomy today, and there are not many people in the cemetery.
Cen Li walked to the tombstone and saw fresh fruit plates on the ground.
His eyes were dark. Don't think about it. He also knew who came to help his mother.
What he owes to Han Chen is impossible to pay it back in his life.
Cen Li slowly squatted down, put the lily bouquet in front of the tombstone, and whispered, "Mom, I'm here to see you."
In the past, when he went to the hospital, his mother would give him some responses whenever he passed, but now there are only cold tombstones in front of him.
"If you can see it, you will be disappointed in me. I am not worthy of your pride in me for a long time. I often wonder if you know, will you blame me? Sometimes I hate myself for being too cowardly, but I can't find another way for them to try again. What it's like to be teased."
"In this world, why are these unfair things exist, why do some people like to manipulate other people's lives, do so many evil things, trample on others under their feet, but still live so well."
"Why... I have to be inferior to life."
"I want to be a complete person, and I don't want to be controlled by others."
"I don't know whether I'm right or wrong to do this, but I don't want to continue."
Perhaps because the temperature was too cold, the tip of Cen Li's nose turned red. For so many years, he has endured all the suffering alone and has never complained in front of outsiders.
But he is just a fetal body, not that powerful heart.
There was cold rain falling on his face. It rained lightly in the gray clouds, and the sky was much darker.
Cen Li leaned against the tombstone and whispered, "... Mom, I'm so tired."