Summary: Remus used to be an evil homophobic bully with his main victim being the homosexual outcast Virgil. Things changed though - and they changed for the better.
TW - Homophobia, worry about people finding out you're gay, the word 'twink', slight bullying, and becomes a little smutty near the end XD - Tell me if there's more
Words: 3045 (another long one)
"You're brave!"
"I'm brave!"
Remus and his daughter Dawn stood outside the little girl's kindergarten classroom on her first day of class, screaming at each other about how brave they were. The father was excited for this moment - maybe too excited as parents around him were giving him a confused and slightly annoyed glance. He couldn't help but be excited for his daughter though as she stood outside her classroom with her black hair in pigtails and a wide smile on his face.
The teacher soon started to call all kindergarteners into the classroom. This moment was why Remus' husband couldn't drop their daughter off today - Dawn was slowly realising she had to say goodbye for a few hours and was tearing up. "Hey, hey, emotions are valid but no tears right now. Didn't you say you're brave?"
While Remus would love to have his princess in his arms for the whole day he had to let go. Dawn sniffled but with a few encouraging words she made her way into the classroom with a smile on her face. Remus was almost crying seeing that.
"Wait - Remus Koshaku! Oh I haven't seen you since high school!" A woman's voice dragged Remus out of his proud father mode with a voice he was worried about hearing again saying a surname he no longer went by. "Which one's yours?" The woman said excitedly, glancing into the classroom and waving at a kid that looked an awful lot like her which was tearing the place down. Remus didn't speak - only pointed at Dawn who was playing tea party with another kid. "Wow Party Central Remus has a daughter! Her mother must be one lucky lady."
"She is." Remus hated pronouns when he had to use them wrong. This was one of the few people he couldn't tell that he was married to a man. That he was gay. And that he married someone he hated with a passion in high school.
*****
Remus was sat with his friends outside of school, chewing gum and chatting about what lessons they should skip to get fast food and/or some alcohol for their first party of the school year the next week. "Pff looks like Mr Gay tried to have a glow up." One of Remus' friends chuckled in his fake low voice, a cheerleader over his shoulder as the group watched the most notorious bottle of nerves in their grade.
As he was surrounded both sides Remus had to duck his head to avoid people seeing his heated cheeks, pretending to glance at the time on his phone. Virgil did in fact have a slight glow up since sophomore year. His hair used to look like it never touched a brush but now he looked as though he learnt how to style it - and the tips were dyed a neon purple. Instead of covering himself with his hoodie he was wearing a simple purple t-shirt... And he had gone to the gym. That image would never leave Remus' mind.
This seemed like a typical gay love story but Remus was not going to let it be. He unleashed his anger over the way Virgil controlled him quickly, storming over and shoving past anyone that was in his way. He reached Virgil and glared ready to punch if he needed to.
"Came to suck my dick gay-boy?" Remus growled, face to face with Virgil. In freshman and sophomore year Virgil learnt to cower and silence once he heard Remus' question but this time he stood straight, raised an eyebrow, crossed his arms, and smirked softly. "What - you actually thinking about it?" Remus tried to laugh but he was rendered to silence by Virgil's glare.
"You still want that then?" Virgil smirked, looking Remus up and down like a predator hunting its prey. The dynamic had flipped - and Remus didn't know what to do with this information. "I thought we left that in tenth grade."
Before Remus could have time to process why his heart was beating so fast and his palms were getting so sweaty he gave Virgil a harsh slap - avoiding all eye contact. "Real mature." Virgil scowled, rubbing his cheek slightly but then turning back to the school gates and going inside. Remus watched him for a second, thoughts racing, and he wanted absolutely none of them.
But his friends were laughing and calling Virgil names, congratulating Remus for giving him the slap he deserved, and that reassured Remus that he was doing the right thing. He was just confused, these thoughts would disappear soon enough.
*****
A few months later Remus was wondering the dark corridors to go home after an after-school detention. No teachers were watching him, the classrooms were dark, the world was empty all apart from... Him.
Virgil was listening to music and playing on his phone as he walked in the same direction Remus was taking, his face lighting in the darkness due to his phone screen. This wasn't unusual - Virgil often stayed after school to revise with his best friend Logan (there were rumours they were having sex in the library). But him walking alone was quite different. Virgil had quite sharp cheekbones - Remus had not noticed that before. In fact Remus was captivated by this distracted junior so much he didn't realise he had swerved closer to him until he was a short distance away.
So Remus shoved Virgil against the lockers with the angriest look he could pull. "Fuck you." Was the only thing he could utter out. God... They were quite close in this position. Why was he always stuck in situations like this?
A half smile crept on Virgil's lips as he looked Remus up and down yet again. "So you're a power bottom, huh?" Virgil chirped, a slight happiness in his voice even though he should feel threatened and meek like he did before. What had changed? Surely this 'glow up' hadn't changed everything in this dynamic which only happened to get Virgil as far away from Remus as possible.
Virgil raised an eyebrow before he spoke again, simply with no taunting or scared tone like before. "Look - If you have something to tell me just say it. Come out in your own time of course but-" He was slapped again, but sighed and continued speaking. "I won't tell anyone anything you tell me. I won't even tell Logan - and he loves gossip as much as he likes Ancient Roman literature textbooks."
"Shut up." Remus whispered again. His thoughts were getting louder and begging to be heard: bring him closer, kiss him, you know you want to. But Remus didn't want to. He knew the risks. He knew he'd lose all his family and friends if he just gave in to everything his mind was wanting right now.
But Virgil looked so determined. He was lucky - he had a best friend who also wasn't straight and presumably a family that supported him. Remus could never have that. Instead he was uttered to almost silence and confusion with these hard to ignore thoughts. "You're... making me..."
"No-one can make you gay Remus. It's always been there, it's up to you when you access it."
Lips met lips quickly - a load of anxiety seemed to finally relax all of Remus' muscles and the thoughts stopped. Well, they stopped for a moment only to be replaced. He liked this. It was much better than any girls he kissed during parties. Their skin just felt too soft and their lips were too chapped with lip gloss. This was different... This was nothing less than perfect.
Virgil was the first to tear away, his cheeks were pink and his lips were red. He stuttered for a little to fill the silence, looking away, Remus had to step back to avoid making the same (possible) mistake again. "I - um - wow - uh... I had my suspicions you were hiding something but not... Wow..."
"Don't you dare tell anyone Twink." The anger arose in Remus' brain again as he growled, crossing his arms so he wasn't tempted to do anything stupid again and maybe to let Virgil escape as Remus was almost begging him to do so that he wouldn't have to confront this.
A giggle escaped Virgil's lips which he seemed to immediately regret by the look of doom in his eyes. "Sorry - that my was my first ki... Why am I telling you that? Uh... We don't have to do anything after that if you don't want to."
Virgil's lips were quite good to kiss - he wouldn't mind repeated kisses after this moment. This time Remus himself decided to softly kiss Virgil again rather than his mind playing tricks on him. The kiss only lasted a second but Remus didn't mind. He just got serotonin from seeing Virgil's smile. "Can we... Do this secretly for a while? I can't forget this anytime soon..."
*****
Again Remus was sat with his friends outside of school waiting for classes to start. They were all joking and talking about the party the night before - a party Remus had 'forgotten' to attend. That didn't affect his popularity of course, he still had a girl under his shoulder giggling and leaning on him and Remus played along. Luckily the woman was too involved in conversation to realise Remus' phone had vibrated to receive a text.
Virgil: I just got 2 school <3 meet me by the bleachers if you wanna :)
"I've gotta take a walk guys." Remus said to his friends, pushing the girl off him and stuffing his phone in his pocket. His friends mumbled permission to let their friend go and Remus slinked away to the school field where he found Virgil sitting in the darkness under the bleachers. "Hey Mr Gay." Remus whispered, a wide smile on his face as he sat next to Virgil who seemed preoccupied with plugging the earphones out of his ears. "Did you miss me last night?"
"You literally dropped me home at midnight babe I don't know what you're talking about." Virgil's eyes were shining seeing Remus again and a soft smile reached his lips. Slowly he couldn't resist his eyes staring at Remus' lips. Luckily both high schoolers had the same idea in mind and they shared another slow and careful kiss in the darkness hidden from everyone else in the school.
That's where the pair stayed until lessons began, cuddled up to each other exchanging kisses and soft words. When lessons began Virgil left the bleachers first and walked one side of the school, and then Remus left and joined his friends to walk the other side of the school. They didn't see each other for the rest of the day but that was alright - they cared about each other.
*****
Virgil lay in bed at night giggling to himself. He couldn't help it. It had been a whole two months since his first kiss, and last week Remus even asked him to be his boyfriend. Remus seemed a whole lot more nice and happy now he was discovering his identity step by step and Virgil was proud of him. Things really seemed to be looking up for Mr Virgil Bul-An.
His phone vibrated under his pillow which woke Virgil up from his almost slumber. This was normal - Remus' parents were quite controlling so he could only sneak texts when his family had all gone to bed. Texts he gave were surprisingly quite sappy and loving... Apart from this one.
My Trash Man <3: I can't see you anymore.
The smile immediately left Virgil's face seeing those five words. He'd had nightmares about this moment - he didn't think it would come this soon. But before he could ask why he received yet another text.
My Trash Man <3: I'm not gay. I'm moving school to erase the sin you gave me. Goodbye forever.
And just like that Virgil's phone number was blocked. The next day at school Remus had apparently suddenly moved to the private religious school in the next district - and Virgil was alone and heartbroken. At least he had his best friend's shoulder to cry into, and the bullies didn't seem to care about him now Remus was gone. The bullies didn't know why Remus was gone though - that remained a mystery to everyone but the one who loved him the most.
*****
"Yeah, yeah, vodka and coke - I hear you." Remus shouted over the loud college music, mixing drinks for a few friends in his mathematics class. It was the typical college party Remus either ran or attended now he was away from home - it's how he got popular in his classes and he had become quite a good bartender.
He felt comfortable like this. Women were fawning over him and leaning on him and he was flirting back willingly. He just wasn't happy with this life. He could never stop thinking about Virgil - about how it felt to kiss him and the certain way his voice would chime after a compliment. Even though his parents had spent their hard earned money trying to rub those thoughts out of him they were still there - like an addiction.
But at least he was far away from him now. Remus had no clue what college Virgil went to, if any, but there were thousands of colleges so the likeliness the one person he couldn't stop thinking about was in the same college as him was near impossible. Although the probability was not 0%.
"Give me a rum lemonade sweetheart." That voice - shit. Remus turned to where the voice came from to spot the one and only Virgil, wearing a purple dyed tank top and skinny jeans. Virgil seemed to recognise Remus straight away too by the familiar doom in his eyes and pink of his cheeks. "Actually, make that for two."
Remus obeyed and quickly made him and Virgil a drink before abandoning his station behind the bar - it was soon filled by another man wanting to impress the plenty of people around them.
The pair walked in silence, sipping on their drinks. Remus was just staring at Virgil - he hadn't seen him since they were sixteen and now they were both twenty-one. He definitely had a glow-up. His biceps were bigger and his hair more styled and now completely a dark purple, stubble lay on his chin and he must have even learnt how to compliment himself with make-up. He looked irresistible.
"Now... We need to chat." Virgil said casually as he leant against the wall, seemingly unbothered about anything. "There was no point in time you thought of meeting up with me to talk? Instead I was just blocked?"
"I couldn't help it! My parents found out I was gay and they couldn't handle it."
Virgil rolled his eyes. "Are you still hiding it? You seemed pretty straight over there." Remus wished he could tell Virgil (or anyone else) that he was bisexual or pansexual but both men knew he wasn't. There was nothing like kissing Virgil.
"It's just... big... I want to be gay but right now I can't risk it." Virgil's lips were looking so much more tempting as the thoughts began again that lead to the first kiss in junior year. Instead of being angry Virgil just nodded, sighing and taking a sip of his drink before speaking yet again.
"I missed you." He whispered out - the whisper only just loud enough to be over the music. Not that he needed to be heard necessarily. Remus' eyes had landed on Virgil's lips and they would not look away. Eventually Virgil did the same and they leaned slowly together and locked lips shyly - although gaining plenty of confidence as time went by.
This kiss was miles different from previous kisses. The two men were flush against each other, grabbing each other wherever the other felt comfortable. The kiss got deeper and deeper as they clutched each other harder - small moans and grunts escaped quietly until Virgil pushed away slightly. He was very blunt again like he always was. "Question - are you still a virgin?"
Remus nodded and placed soft kisses on Virgil's neck. He had the opportunity to have a sexual experience in the past - but it was always with women and that just never did it for him. "Shall I change that in the bedroom?" He asked again, and Remus nodded and kissed Virgil's lips as if he had to in order to survive.
Virgil and Remus walked into the empty bedroom, Remus sat at the end of the bed and smiled at Virgil excitedly. Slowly, too slow for Remus, Virgil unbuttoned Remus' jeans and brought his lips closer to his crotch. Remus' eyes rolled to the back of his head and relieved sighs and moans escaped in line with Virgil's movements.
Fuck... Fuck... Remus was certainly, most definitely, gay as fuck.
*****
"Oh shut being so sappy." Virgil yawned as Remus and his husband lay in bed together early in the morning. It was the weekend, neither had work, and their daughter Dawn wasn't awake yet. This meant Remus was free to annoy Virgil with his sappiness - this time he did so by staring at his wedding ring and complimenting the amount of love it was made by.
"I have every right to be sappy when I have this cutie in front of me." Remus kissed Virgil's forehead which made him giggle. The sweetest little giggle Remus couldn't get enough of. "I love you. I always have."
Virgil laughed but cuddled into his husband. He remembered when he only saw Remus as an annoying bully that would never leave him alone - now he couldn't stop cuddling into him. And he even had a little girl with his lover that just started kindergarten. He couldn't imagine back then that his life would end up like this. "I love you too."
Remus gave him lover a playful slap which made both burst into giggles. They shared another sloppy kiss, smiling at each other as Remus whispered. "Don't you dare tell anyone Twink."