Saddle Ranch/ Sway
Today-
Jordans POV-
⚠️TW: Suicide⚠️
I made it to saddle ranch and parked kinda far from it since there was hella paparazzi in the front. I texted bryce if he could come to the front and get me because there are paparazzi already starting to mob my car. I got out of the car and excused myself trying to get to the front but they were not moving out of the way.
" Jordan, is it true that your brother Aaron committed suicide?"
"Im sorry what?" i asked now looking at the paparazzi in front of me. From the other side i heard,
" Jordan, is it true that you didnt go to his funeral?"
" Jordan is it true that your the reason Aaron committed suicide?"
" Jorda over here, we heard he sent you a letter and you ignored it and didnt tell anyone."
" Is it true Aaron had a drinking problem?"
At this point i was shaking trying to make my way out but the more i walked to the front i felt like i was going in deeper. I felt like i was suffocating and i couldnt breath.
I felt someone grab me by the shoulder and started guiding me out of the crowd. I saw security also trying to get them away from me. But that didnt stop them from asking.
" I understand that this is your job but that doesnt mean that you have to ask these questions. She clearly doesnt want to talk about it and you guys are still yelling at her. When she is ready to address this, she will. Now kindly, fuck off." I heard bryce say as we made it to the front and they were still pushing there way towards me. We made it inside and back to the table. I stopped shaking little but it was still noticeable.
" Jordan, its ok. Well figure out whats going on in a little bit. Dont worry about it okay? Eat some dinner and well go home and relax alright?" I heard nessa say as she came up to me to try and help my shaking go away. She pulled out her juul and gave it to me. " I brought this for me but you need it more." We made our way to the table and i sat next to nessa and jaden.
" Hey, jor. You good?" Jaden asked me as i sat down. I just nodded and took a hit of the juul and blew the smoke to the side so that it didnt hit the rest of the people at the table.
As i blew it out to the side, i saw cameras flashing and talking pictures. Shit. I am going to get yelled at from my manager. The media didnt know i smoked because i never posted about it. Only on my spam. Only close friends follow that so i was worried about that but now, i am worried.
" Shit" I said out loud. It caught everyones attention and they saw what i was looking at and gave me a small smile. I saw tayler get up and go talk to the manager. He came back some seconds later and smiled at me. I saw security go up to the paparazzi and got them away from the windows and doors. I smiled at tayler and mouthed 'Thank you'. He smiled and mouthed ' no problem'.
The food came and we finished eating. So, decided to go to sway for a movie night to get nessa and jaden happy again. At least for a night. We split up some in my car and some in bryce, avani and taylors. In mine was me, nessa, jaden, quinton and charli.
We decided to make a quick stop at the apartment to get some essentials for the night. We brought some extra cloth for the girls to wears because they were setting everything up at sway. We got all the cloth and we decided to bring some weed because that is going to be well needed and the guys dont have any. Well, they arent allowed sine the incident in texas.
We arrived at sway and brought in all the stuff. When we arrived we saw everything already ready in the living room. Me and charli passed out all the sweats and hoodies we brought over to the girls so we could get changed.
Everyone decided to watch the movie The Conjuring because not a lot of us have seen it. ( That mf almost made me shit my pants) Some of us sat on the couch and some on the mattresses on the floor. Everyone was cuddled up to their significant others while us the single ones sat on the floor cuddled up to one another. It was me, nessa, charli, madi, jaden, quin, kio, griffin and quinton, bryce and taylor since there gf didnt come. We were all on the mattresses cuddled up to each other or cuddled up to a pillow.
We were on the middle of the second conjuring when i get a call from... Josh's mom?
" Ciao dolcezza" ( Hello honey)
" Ciao Alice" ( Hi Alice) I made up the name lmao
" Joshua é appena arrivato a New York e mi ha raccontato cos'é successo. Non siamo molto soddisfatti di quello che ha fatto, ma voglio scusarmi con Janessa e Jaden per le sue azioni. Janessa mi aveva parlato del suo problema con l'acido e il bere, ma non pensavo fosse cosí grave." She said as i heard her sigh. ( Joshua just arrived in New york and told me what happened. We are not very happen with what he did but i want to apologize to janessa and jaden for his actions. Janessa had told me about his problem with acid and drinking but i didnt think it was this bad.)
" Alice, se l'avessi saputo dall'inizio, sarei volata a Los Angeles ma nessuno mi aveva avvisato. L'ho scoperto solo una settimana fa e ho cercato di aiutare ma abbiamo litigato. Mi dispiace Alice, é tutta colpa mia. L'ho ignorato per tutto questo tempo invece di aiutarlo perché ero arrabbiato con lui. Se avessi- " She cut me off. (Alice if i would have known from the begging, i would have flown over to la but nobody had notified me. I just found out a week ago and i tried to help but we had gotten into a fight. Im sorry alice, this is all my fault. I ignored him this whole time instead of helping him because i was mad at him. If i would have-)
" No tesoro, non é assolutamente colpa tua. Lo sapevo fin dall'inizio e non ho mai ricevuto l'aiuto di Joshua né te l'ho detto. Mi ha detto che si era fermato e gli ho creduto." (No honey, this is absolutely not your fault. I knew from a begging and never got Joshua help or told you. He told me he had stopped and i believed him.) It was silent for some seconds until she spoke up.
" Mi ha detto che era Emily con la quale ha tradito... mi ha anche detto che lo reggette." (He told me it was emily who he cheated with... He also told me he reggrets it.) I was silent for some seconds trying not to let the tears come out.
" Ci siamo promessi a vicenda che non saremmo tornati. Vincent mi ha mandato un messaggio da quando sono arrivato a Los Angeles e per quanto io voglia mandargli un messaggio, non lo farò. Perché ci siamo promessi a vicenda che non saremmo andati. E poi mi dice che è andato a letto con Emily? ... Non solo ha infranto la nostra promessa, ma ha anche infranto la mia fiducia ... Ho visto Joshua come un fratello da quando ci siamo incontrati. Ma ora che ha fatto questo ... Non credo di poterlo perdonare Alice. Non posso." said now tears falling out of my eyes. ( We promised eachother we werent going to go back. Vincent has been texting me since i arrived to la and as much as i want to text him, i wont. Because we promised eachother we werent going to. And then he tells me he slept with emily?... Not only did he break our promise but he also broke my trust... Ive seen joshua as a brother since we met. But now that he did this... i dont think i can forgive him alice. I cant.)
"Parla con lui, Jordan. Ho parlato con lui e posso dire che non lo intendeva. Mi ha detto che aveva paura di perdere la tua amicizia e che tu significhi molto per lui. Piangeva perché non vuole perderti. Intendi il mondo per lui Jordan, il tuo migliore amico. Almeno lascia che ti parli ... lascia che ti spieghi. Se decidi di rompere questa amicizia, sappi che farai sempre parte della nostra famiglia." She said as i heard her voice soften at the end. ( Just talk to him jordan. I talked to him and i can tell he didnt mean it. He told me he was scared to loose your friendship and that you mean alot to him. He was crying because he doesnt want to loose you. You mean the world to him Jordan, your his bestfriend. At least let him talk to you... let him explain. If you decide to break this friendship, just know you will always be part of our family.)
" Ok, grazie Alice. Parlerò con lui. Se hai bisogno di me per volare fuori o hai bisogno di qualcosa fammelo sapere." I said wipping my tears as i heard someone come outside.(Ok, thank you alice. Ill talk to him. If you need me to fly out or need anything let me know.)
" Nessun problema, tesoro. Ti farò sapere se succede qualcosa. Sappi solo che a Joshua manchi molto ed è dispiaciuto. E anche io, Pedro, Olivia e William. Abbi cura di te tesoro. Buonanotte visto che sono indietro di 7 ore laggiù." She chuckled at the end. ( No problem honey. Ill let you know if anything happens. Just know joshua misses you alot and is sorry. And so do me, pedro, olivia and william. Take care honey. Goodnight since its 7 hours behind over there.)
" Mi manchi anche tu, buongiorno da quando è già mattina. Ciao alice." I chuckled at the end. (I miss you all too, goodmorning since its already morning. Bye alice.)
" ciao stammi bene" (bye take care).
I hung up and took a deep breath until i heard someone clear there throat behind me.
" You speak italian?" I heard someone say behind me.
(A/N)
didnt reread-
im sorry but i have a thing for italian people and there language-
ANYWAYZ-
sorry for the late update
got ALL of my electronics take away for
sNeAkInG oUt
literally went to the fucking corner store to get some fucking snacks because ya girl was hungry at 2 in the morning. WHICH IS LITERALLY CROSSING THE FUCKING STREET FROM MY HOUSE.
smh
hope yall liked this chapterrrrr
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