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Chapter 38 • Pt. 4

Damn, he couldn't believe that even Mingyu was right. Tzuyu didn't know what she wanted, she was just going to ruin him and she wouldn't even care.

He shook his head, feeling pure ice cut through and burn the last piece of his hear that still cared for her. "You don't love me, c'mon"

"I do," she insisted and wanted to get closer, but Jungkook ordered her with his glare to stay away because he felt disgust and too much disappointment which only made him angry.

"No, you don't. You say you love me just when Mingyu is out of the picture, Tzuyu," he told her on the verge of exploding, sincerely treating her like she was stupid.

Obviously, being harshly scolded with the ugly truth spitted on her face, her eyes filled with tears of frustration and regret. She was hurt but well, he was too! And he was so fucking tired of being the hurt one in this relationship.

"And if you loved me, you wouldn't do this to me," he added. "You wouldn't come here and try to sabotage my happiness"

"Happiness?" she murmured weakly, bringing a hand to her chest as if he were stabbing her with a knife.

"Yes, happiness. I am happy right now," he confessed and began to feel his anger turn into latent fury, because he couldn't believe her audacity, he couldn't believe that she saw him as a damn dog ready to run after her after the most minimal sign of love without even taking into account that he was finally solving his life. She didn't give a shit, if she was unhappy she was going to ruin anyone to feel good about herself. "You don't want me to be happy, right?"

"What?" she blinked in surprise.

Jungkook took a deep breath, relaxing his hands that he had inadvertently squeezed, so tight that it hurt to open his fingers.

"Every single time I was moving on in the past, you were showing up to bring me back to the hole just because you and Mingyu were in bad terms and now you're back here doing the same old shit...," and he sighed outraged, so tired of this shit and not really able to believe that she was this way, especially with him. With him! He was trying to help her! "You were really trying to get between Lisa and me that night in the bar, right? No... wait, you went there following Mingyu, right?"

"I ..." she didn't have to explain herself, her eyes said it all. She was guilty.

Jungkook laughed bitterly and shook his hair, pulling a few strands angrily. He was mad at her and at himself because he'd been stupid, he allowed this to happen and now he was into this shit, ruining everything.

Tzuyu hugged herself with great sorrow, looking as devastated as that cold December night when the worst happened. "Jungkook, I... I don't want to sabotage your happiness, I really thought I could give you happiness since it's everything you ever asked from me but now I think... It is not possible," her voice trailed off as her eyes looked at her feet.

"Give me happiness how? Making me break up with the first fucking girl in my life that loves me?" he spat angrily.

"Don't say that! I love you, maybe not in the most healthy and best way but I do love you Jungkook," she raised her voice strongly enough, it cracked in the middle as tears fell down her cheeks. She wiped them and he found himself noticing he couldn't give less a shit. She was lying, to herself and to him. "Maybe I am really sick and I don't know what I want but I know that I love you and I thought you could help me and we could be happy now that Mingyu is out"

Oh my fucking God.

Jungkook leaned against the chair and buried his face, seeking strength not to grab it and throw it at her head.

"But Lisa is in! Lisa, my GIRLFRIEND!" he literally yelled at her. Wasn't she listening to herself? Wasn't she noticing how selfish and self-centered she sounded?