Chasing Mr. Right [Complete]

Fifty-fifth Chase

Fifty-fifth Chase 

Fourth year college. July. 

I froze.

Hindi ko alam kung pano ako magrereact sa ginawa ni Jasper. Humiwalay sa'kin si Jasper at umahon pagkatapos lang ng ilang segundo, minuto, o baka oras, it felt like his lips were against mine for hours, wala na kong idea. I lost track of time.

Hanggang sa pakiramdam ko malulunod na ko at di na ko mahinga kaya umahon na ko. Nakita kong nakaahon na pala karamihan nung mga tao. May isang lalaking umahon pagkatapos ko, siya yung huling nasa ilalim ng tubig. Tumingin ako sa paligid at nakita si hangover guy na hinahabol nang ilan sa mga kaibigan niya at kinakantyawan siyang tanggalan yung suot niyang board shorts. Huh, siya siguro yung natalo.

"Wow, Cha, ang tagal mong nasa tubig!"

Napaparanoid ako. May nakakita ba sa ginawa ni Jasper? Everyone was underwater then. Kung may nagbukas lang ng mga mata nila sa ilalim ng tubig, siguradong nakita na nila kami ni Jasper.

I looked at Jasper, who was biting his lower lip. Mukha siyang ninenerbiyos. 

Well, he should be because I'm really pissed at him right now!

Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin bago ako umalis sa pool at kinuha yung towel ko na nakalagay sa isa sa mga sunbathing chairs na nakakalat sa paligid ng pool.

How could he kiss me without my permission? Even after he promised me before na hinding hindi niya gagawin yun? But most of all, I'm angry because I didn't like what I felt when Jasper kissed me. How could I feel this way?

"Charm, teka." Hinabol ako ni Jasper at pinigilan. "Let's talk."

"No."

"Charm, ginawa ko lang 'yun because honestly, halata namang ikaw na yung matatalo doon kanina and I don't want you removing any part of your clothes and those guys looking at you---"

"Look, I don't understand you. I thought you wanted to be friends. Jasper, this is not how friends act!"

"Yun na nga yung problema eh! Ayokong maging magkaibigan tayo! Ayokong maging magkaibigan lang tayo!" 

"No, we already talked about this! We already decided to break up!"

"No, you decided, Charm. At pumayag lang ako because I respect your decision." Sinuklay niya yung buhok niya gamit yung kamay. He looks really frustrated right now. "Nung February, pumunta ka sa bahay, di ba? At hinahanap mo ko. Sinabi 'yun sa'kin ni Ate. Bakit ka pumunta nun, Charm? Bakit mo ko hinahanap? Anong sasabihin mo sa'kin noon?"

I remember kung ano bang sasabihin ko dapat noon. I desperately wanted to talk to Jasper then. I wanted to apologize to him. I wanted to ask for another chance, I wanted to beg na tanggapin niya ko ulit, na mahalin niya ko ulit. But that was then, that was months ago, and everything's different now. Dahil nung araw na yun, si Tiffany ang nakausap ko and she made me realize that Jasper's better off without me, that I don't deserve him and that it would be better for everybody kung maghihiwalay na lang kami ni Jasper. And for the first time, I agreed with her.