"Because" she starts "they have something in the future to be happy about"
"And you don't?"
"No" she says "our son perfers you, you and Robin hate me, and I'm a mistake"
"That's where you're wrong" I say "he just wants to hang with the guys, I love you, and you're the best thing that's ever happened to me"
She loosened her grip on me and her eyes trailed up to mine "Am I?"
"If you weren't" I start "would I be sitting here telling you I love you?"
"I don't know" she says "anyone can say they love you"
"But not anyone can mean it"
"You know that I love you right?" She says with pained eyes
"I know"
"You're the only person that can make me this happy" she smiles through the tears "the only person that can make me smile even when I'm broken"
"You're broken?" I ask
"Oh Zayn" she says "I've been broken from day 1, its as if I was literally born to die"
"You promised me you'd be strong"
"Sometimes we all hide behind an iron mask that is life" she says softly
"Are you for real or are you just referring to the book The Man Behind The Iron Mask?" I ask
"I'm serious Zayn"
"You said you'd stay"
"Well so did you" she argues "why can't the world just leave me alone? Why won't you just let me die?"
I reminded voiceless. Shock was all I felt
"Just let me die" she cries "I just wanna die"
"Please don't do that to me" I beg as I fight back the tears that were begging to fall
"I can't take life"
"But we need you" I plead "I need you"
"No one needs me"
Wait- ohh. I get it now
"Why did you read it?"
"Why do they all hate me so much?" She asks "I'm such a waste of space"
"No you're not"
"But I am" she kept a hard glare on the ground "they said I don't deserve you and that you'd never love me"
"But they're not me" I say "they don't know how much I love you"
"That's because they know that you don't" she says
"Why won't you accept my love? Don't you see it?"
"I see it" she says "but it isn't for me, its for someone else"
"I don't love her" I plead "she was a mistake"
"A mistake you made twice?"
"You can't kill yourself" I beg "please?"
"As much as it pains me to let you go I have to" she says "you'd be better off without me"
"And what do I tell our son?" I ask "what do I tell him when he's asking for his mum? Do I lie?"
"Fallen angels never spend eternity on earth" she says "they have to return home sometimes"
I lay her in my lap and began to him softly into her ear. She began to shake as lighting struck outside
"Paragon of virtue ignore your depression" I sang into her ear "if you feel an urge just take reprecaution"
"You're singing another one of my songs?" She asks and I nod. She began to sing along. She sounded wounded
I can't help but feel as if its my fault
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So here's a quick update. The song he was singing is an original by me, so don't go looking it up to see what it is because it's not real and you will be seriously disappointed... Well...I don't know. Bye
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Zayn Malik? But do I care?
Random(Cringe warning. I started this when I first began writing) I wanted to slap everyone in their faces. All they wanted to talk about was Zayn. "Do I look like I care about what he thinks?" "but he's Zayn Malik!" Robin says. She wasn't fond of him but...
Questioning Death
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