Invisible string

It was all a lie

Camila's pov:

It had been a few days since Shawn confessed his feelings for me and things were going pretty good between the two of us even though he still didn't remembered a single thing but honestly it didn't matter if we were together and I didn't wanted to push him. The only thing I was concerned about was Mark Lockwood he had really brainwashed Shawn and made him believe that my dad was the one who killed his mom. I wanted to tell him the whole truth but I didn't knew if he trusted me at this stage so I decided it was better not to. I was driven out of my thoughts as I felt Shawn pulling me closer to his chest.

"Good morning to you too." I mumbled against his chest before pressing a gentle kiss to his exposed skin as he moved some hair away from her face.

I propped myself up on my elbows to look up at his gorgeous face, his honey orbs twinkling as he wrapped his finger around one of my loose hair strands playing with it. He smiled at me showing his sexy dimples as he placed a soft kiss on my forehead and god I love these heart melting kisses so much I never think I'll have enough of his kisses, of him. I didn't wanted to be somewhere where he wasn't anymore because for me my heart and home were where he was.

"We have to get up now or we'll be late and that is one thing that no one in the troop handles well." I pouted.

"I know but I don't wanna go, I want to stay here with you babe." He replied after kissing my pouted lips. Even though we were not in an official relationship at the moment we often used words of endearment.

"I wanna cuddle!" Shawn said enacting Camila's all time favourite dialogue.
"You're the worst!" I said giggling.

"Oh you know I'm the best baby." He said tracing his fingers softly on the skin of my inner thighs. I kind of always thought that my stretch marks looked ugly but he always drew stars on what I thought were scars by his soft feather like delicate kisses.

"Hey!" I said swatting his hand away.
"We're getting late, we don't have time for sex right now." I glared at him.

"Sure we do, you know we can use the shower I mean just to save water and save time." He said with a devilish smirk.

"Yeah dummy you're right let's go." I said taking his hand and guiding him.

••••••••••••

"Yeah" I heard in a hushed tone when I was walking by the storage unit where we usually had our guns. I curiously hid behind one of the big boxes as I looked up and holy shit it was Shawn taking to Leila. I would be okay if he'd talked to her, but what was this that was so important that he had to take her in private.

"So, you're just using her then." Leila said stroking Shawn's arm while intentionally rolling her bottom lip between her teeth.

"Yeah. My dad told me to do so to get some information about the Cabello's and also you know she's Alejandro's only daughter so she must be his weakness. So, once this mission gets over and it'll be just our gangs we'll use Camila against the Cabello's."

What was I listening to fuck sje must've been seeing a nightmare in her dream no this can't be real I thought to myself as tears uncontrollably streamed down my face. Had it all really been a sick game which she thought was true love. But she could see the look in his eyes when he looked at her or it must've been her senseless naive brain which thought he was the Shawn he used to be but her Shawn would never stoop down to this level never.

"That makes sense like I was thinking why in the world you'd date that girl she's got nothing appreciable though I won't lie she has a hot ass but that doesn't trades for this full meal..." Leila said running her red painted nails along his bicep.

"Uh um yeah...she's got a hot ass but definitely not worth my time and she thinks I'm in love with her quite funny isn't it." He said as the red head in front of him laughed.

Camila wiped her cheeks before deciding it was best if she'd just say that she's sick and go to her place because honestly she had too much to bear now but as soon as she turned on her heel she knocked off some empty cartons and in a few seconds both Shawn and Leila were now looking at her.

"How long have you been standing there?" Shawn asked fear etched on the lines of his forehead.

"Yeah long enough to know I was your personalized garbage bin. Fuck off! Go have fun with this bitch whose hair looks like burned spaghetti ." I spat raising my middle finger in their direction before stomping of the unit.

Wow I really was just a game, deep down I'd hoped that what I had just listened to was a lie but all my hollow hopes disappeared the moment I realised he wasn't even coming after me to give an explanation, did he really had nothing to say was it all a lie, it had to be.

As soon as I entered my apartment I took a bottle of liquor as I slopped down on the white marble floor sobbing and drowning myself in alcohol. Within minutes I had literally chugged down the whole bottle, I got up drunkenly trying to take out another bottle from the cabinet before this time sitting with my body against the kitchen counter.

I smashed the bottle angrily against the tiled floor as I watched it break into small pieces that was exactly how I was feeling in the current moment, used and thrown as I break into a million pieces. Some pieces lost and some I never had hope would fix now.

A/N: Bye I'm emo so I'm going to sleep 😪