𝐃𝐀𝐃𝐃𝐘 𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐔𝐄𝐒 | 𝐉𝐉 𝐌𝐀𝐘𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐊

✰ten✰

"maddy? hello?" i woke up to cassie waving her eyes in front of my face,

"yeah?"i asked, groggily and sat up, immediately  clutching my aching head and groaning at the pain,

"your phones ringing." 

"thanks, " i said and picked it up, it was kiara.

"hey kie." i said rubbing my eyes,

"hey girlie, how are you?" 

"uh  alright, you?" i lied

"good yeah! you wanna hang out today? we're going to hang out at john b's dock and swim." i glanced at cassie who was scrolling on her phone with a blank expression on her face, looking sick.

"i think i'm gonna have to pass, sorry." 

"oh, thats okay! were gonna go to the out door movie tonight do you think  you could come for that?" she asked me "if not that's totally fine too." she added

"um, maybe i'll see. i have a lot of chores i need to do." i continued

"okay! well i hope to see you tonight." she responded and hung up the phone as i muttered a quick sorry and see you.

"chores?" asked Cassie giving me a look

"nope. you and i are going out today." she raised an eyebrow "we're gonna go shopping in chapel hill and we can go out for lunch and-"

"no maddy." she said "i'm really not in the mood." this was the first stage. she would slowly sink further into depression until she rarely ever left the safety of her room, i need to coax her out before it got bad.

"too bad, so sad, we're going." i said grabbing her hand 

"But maddyyyy" she groaned as i dragged her out of my bed, where she slept last night.

"come on! it will be fun." i insisted "you can dress up nice and i'll buy you something." i said

"anything?" she asked innocently

"yeah, whatever." she nodded as i rolled my eyes. and went to get ready.

i put on my white jeans, with a blue halter top and white sandals. i made sure to apply a generous amount of concealer and foundation to cover my bruises but i didn't have many on my arms and chest only scars and the halter rose high so you could barley see them.

"lets go!" i said i needed to be really optimistic because as my mom always said, "negative energy attracts negative people" and i needed cassie to not let her negativity win.

"okay..." she told me we walked out the door and got into my car,

"so where do you wanna go first?" i asked after a few minutes of awkward silence in the car,

"i don't care." she said

"come on cassie, how bout brandy?" i offered

"i wont fit in any of the clothes."

"okay, well why not pacsun?"

"no maddy, i'm not pretty like you and kiara and sarah." 

"stop comparing yourself to me! your so beautiful, like, i wish i had your features." 

"really?" she asked me looking up,

"yeah! like your eyes are so pretty their golden brown and mine are like dog shit" she giggled.

"they are dog shit brown." she laughed 

"hey!" i said and playfully hit her in the arm she threw her hands up. we eventually got to chapel hill and actually had a good time until it was lunch,

"you wanna go to a restaurant or a drive thru," i asked

"i don't care, i'm not hungry." she said putting her sweatshirt hood up.

"well, let's go to Amato's." we walked to the sandwich place and sat down, after we ordered and i had eaten, all cassidy had touched was her diet coke,

"cass, please eat." i said

"i'm not hungry." she insisted

"can you just have like a bite?" i asked she sighed and began to pick at her salad i sighed happily and finished my sandwich, looking at her and seeing that she gave up on the salad and was scrolling on her phone and sipping her soda rarely.

"cass.." 

"what? i ate, didn't i?" she snapped and i gave her a look.

"come on, this was supposed to be fun! what happened?" she just looked down,

"can we just go home?" she whispered tightly "please" i sighed nodding.

"..yeah." i whispered "yeah, we can go." i got up getting my bag and paying before walking out, her steps ahead of me practically running to the car, i was going slower and on my phone, looking up only to run in to the last people i thought i would see today, sarah cameron with...john b?

"Maddy?" she asked 

"uh, hey guys." i said, watching cassie walking over to the car and getting in.

"what are you doing here i thought you were busy today." john b said

"yeah i ah, um..." i tried to come up with an excuse

"well, maddison bails a lot so she probably just lied to you." said sarah, i had forgotton that we were mad at each other for a second,

"actually, i decided to take my sister shopping today, because she doesn't have anyone to hang out with," 

"oh. well thats okay." john said

"and what are you two doing out here?" i asked "together?" i narrowed my eyes,

"were um, we're just hanging out." said sarah

"right." i replied rolling my eyes, john b walked a little away.

"really sarah? you're banging a pogue?" i whispered into her ear,

"oh shut up, i've heard all about you're little adventures with the blonde one." i gasped,

"you didn't." she giggled as we walked off.

 "whatever i'll see you later." and got in the car, maybe we can still be friends.

"cassie, i'm sorry your upset and i'm not going to force you to do anything, but i want you to know that i love you and i'm gonna help you get through this." 

"and i'm really sorry,"

"for what?" she asked me, as we pulled away

"you have to deal with all of this."

"maddy this isn't your fault, your just a kid like me." i shook my head

"but i'm supposed to protect you."

"you're doing the best you can mads. i know okay? i know." i sighed starting the car,

"i love you." she said

"love you too." i said and pulled out

a/n: sorry this one is rlly long but i just got into it lmao. i think i might be able to get another one out tonight, we'll see

 if you're reading this i love u 🤍