"Congratulations, Nics."
"Congratulations, Alexander."
"Congratulations."
Tipid na ngiti at tango lang ang tinutugon ko sa mga kaklase kong bumabati sa akin. I'm happy, pero hindi ko maituturing masaya ako ngayon. I lost two person that very closed to my heart.
It's been three months when Nanay Ersa passed away. And how the love of my life cheated on me. I still remember how I cried myself because of how broken I was. I never want to be that weak ever again.
Naglakad ako sa loob ng university papunta sa comfort room when someone called my name.
"Robin, wait!" I heard the voice of my prof.
Tumigil ako pero hindi ko ito nilingon.
"What do you want, Miss Boa?" Tanong ko sa kanya na nakatalikod pa rin.
I don't want to face her. Baka kapag hinarap ko siya ay hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong may masabing hindi maganda sa kanya and I don't want that to happen. I need to respect her from this moment because she's still my professor and I'm still inside the university na pag-aari niya.
"Please, talk to me Robin." She pleaded, again."M-magpapaliwanag ako sayo. Huwag naman ganito oh. Huwag mo naman akong iwasan dahil nasasaktan din ako. Don't do this to me, Robin. I love you so much."
"You love me?" I faced her. "Talaga bang mahal mo ako?" I laughed because of what she said. "Just stop this, Miss Boa. I'm just here to attend my graduation ceremony pero wala talaga akong balak na pumunta dito kung hindi ito importante." I looked at her in my stoic face. "I'll tell you the truth, I don't really wanna see your face ever again but yeah, I can't do something about it because you're my professor. You know this past three months, hirap na hirap akong iwasan ka because you're always pestering me. Sunod ka ng sunod na parang aso. Can't you understand that I don't want to talked to you."
Nakatingin ito sa akin na may luhang pumatak mula sa kanyang mga mata. Bigla akong naguilty sa pinagsasabi ko. We all say things we don't mean in the heat of anger. I'm just a woman that was fooled by my lover say mean things in heated moments.
I hate her, indeed. But there's part of my heart that still love and care for her. Hindi naman siguro mawawala ang bagay na iyon nang ganun kadali, diba? Even though that person you loved, hurt you and betrayed you.
"R-Robin huwag naman ganito.."
Lumapit ito at yumakap sa akin. Nagulat ako sa ginawa niya kaya hindi ko siya naitulak agad. Bakit ganito pa rin ang puso ko? Bumibilis pa rin ang tibok nito dahil sa kanya. Bakit kahit sinaktan at niloko na niya ako ay siya pa rin ang itinitibok nitong tanga kong puso?
It's unfair, but sadly, it's true. Ganito pala kahirap magmahal. You never wanted to love again dahil nakakatakot sumugal muli, na baka iwan at masaktan ka na naman.
"My love, I missed you." Gumalaw ang mga balikat nito. She's crying. "Come back to me, please. I'm really s-sorry."
Mas lalong humigpit ang yakap niya pero hindi ako tumugon. What I'm supposed to do? Magpapakatanga ba ulit ako para patawarin siya at balikan? Paano kung sasaktan niya ulit ako? Hindi ko maipagkakaila na mahal ko pa rin siya. I'm still into her. But there's a lots of what if's in my mind. Natatakot akong sumugal sa kanya baka hindi ko na makayanang bumangon pa. I'm afraid as hell.
Pinapakiramdaman ko lang siya habang umiiyak ito nang tahimik sa balikat ko. Napapikit ako. Ayaw kong nakikita siyang ganito.
"Babe!"
CZYTASZ
Beautiful Mess (√) • Professor♥Student GL Series #1
Romans'One of the worst things in the world is being fooled by one of the people you care and love. Because trust, when it's broken, it's hard to give back, no matter what you do.' - N.R.J Alexander Nico Robin Alexander is gorgeous, a good sister to her t...
