The Lights We Cannot See

"Space"

Everything about you is so lovable...

You may not be the prettiest,

but you're beautiful heart makes you
stand out from everyone else...

You smile like an angel,

laughs like an angel,

and everything you are from your
soul to your mind, heart and body is angelic.

You know the way..

your nose wrinkles up, and your whole face
turns so red like a tomato, and the way your
stubbornness cathches me every single time..

For when you smell something with a strong smell or when you just woke up and your nose is red and stuffy...

You look like a cute... cute stubborn little hungry cub,

and I'm in love with you all over again.

I kinda hate it when you act all tough and so
mature on the outside...

Just so you won't get hurt anymore...

Sometimes, when you're down and sad..

I would always buy you ice cream, and my jokes
would've always solved the problem...

But now, it's different...

because now..

I'm the problem....

.......

There came a time between us that we wouldn't
even talk to each other even when we're at school
or in class...

I was in the midst of burying my feelings for you

because it was going out of control.

I got in a relationship with someone then..

So I can move on from you,
because I didn't want to harm our friendship.

I always talked about that person even
when we were together,

To the point that I was blinded by lust...

and not love...

......

Turns out...

My love for you was stronger...

but it was too late....

Your fire for me was gone...

We were losing touch,

....

until we became...

strangers with memories.

You cried your eyes out until it was red at
school with our other circle of friends...

It broke me when I saw tears build up from your eyes

.....

You were crying because of me...

Because you were losing me...

and you thought that I didn't care about you anymore...

when I do care about you more than I care about myself...

You said you needed space to think.

So I gave you space...

Even though every single day,

I'm breaking...

I didn't let you see the tears fall out of my eyes...

'cause I knew it would hurt you more.

It wasn't your fault...

It was all mine,

I take all the blame...

because it was my decision that you
warned me about...

For so many months...

...until now

I miss our deep talks..

I wanted to hold you in my arms...

So tight that no one can ever steal you
from me again...

but something in me knew I couldn't...

I didn't let you see the crying monster inside of me..

Until I got home...

and unpacked my things and started focusing
on my homework..

But...

the thought of you crying wouldn't
leave me alone..

Every time I see you with someone else...

I try my best...

to fight the tears and pain of the past..

I don't want you to see me break down..

because of you.

I've said things I can't take back...

....and

All I can say now...

is SORRY.....