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Chapter 30

"Also, you're being so cruel, Lisa, so damn cruel and unfair," Chaeyoung's eyes filled with tears and her voice weakened, clearly affected.

Lisa was being unfair? Lisa?!

"Are you serious? I am being unfair?!" she asked in disbelief, letting anger take over her. "I put your feelings before mine! I stopped talking to him, I've been overanalyzing all I do and talk with him for you! I helped you to bake a fucking cake too! How am I unfair?! I'm just questioning your actions because you wouldn't do that all that if you liked him! Because I care for him as much as I care for you and I've been trying hard to help you both!" there it was, she said it, she couldn't control it and just vomited all her truth.

But Chaeyoung didn't recognize it, she pressed her lips and looked away, holding back tears like a child being scolded. And Lisa felt bad for just a second but her anger was bigger, she was feeling so fucking stupid.

"I like him completely, and I don't have anything against his style," Chaeyoung mumbled after a seconds of tense silence. But why did everything sound like lies to Lisa? Was Lisa finally waking up and noticing that all this shit seemed to be just a damn manipulation? "Jimin kissed me and I rejected him, in that case, Jungkook should question his friend's loyalty. Jimin is an asshole, I told you but you never listened to me. And, for the hundredth time, I didn't steal his design, the project is fucking mine," and a tear rolled down her cheek, eyes red and shinning pupils.

Chaeyoung was hurt but Lisa was so fucking tired.

For real, so tired of all this shit. She felt like everything she did was worthless, every single stupid sacrifice, every single wasted opportunity, all the things she did for her were... for this... for this bullshit.

Chaeyoung didn't want Jungkook for who he was, she liked him for some reason Lisa couldn't understand but she didn't love him, she would never love him more than she loved herself and as she did all that she was denying, she would do it again...

"You don't deserve him," she whispered, looking directly at her teary eyes and left, new heavy tears coming to her eyes. "Neither do I," she mumbled, knowing it perfectly.

This was such a shit, it was so big and messed up. Lisa felt just beaten up, so hard, that she couldn't figure out what the hell was right and what was wrong, who was the villain and who was the hero.

All she knew was that Jungkook blocked her.

And she did deserve it.

***

"Oh, are you two finally getting a divorce?" Bambam asked with shiny eyes, full of hope, very awake for 2AM.

Lisa would have laughed in another situation but, tonight, she wasn't up for these jokes.

She walked inside his penthouse with Leo's cage in one hand and a backpack with her laptop inside hanging from her shoulders, just leaving her apartment... yes, it was her apartment but she needed to leave and she wasn't going to kick Chaeyoung's ass to the streets, it was a complicated situation but she was still her best friend.

Bambam's penthouse was huge and luxurious, floors so white and pristine that they would make God cry with envy. Lisa could see her reflection in the marble as she advanced, the lights were warm and although it could give a cold feeling, Bambam had so many details of himself in every corner that he made the place cozy. On the first floor was a huge living room with a black leather sofa and a screen possibly larger than a normal bathroom, with powerful sound equipment. Just behind that area was the kitchen with gleaming white countertops and an included bar, Bambam had a huge collection of alcohol in a display case, lit by blue led lights. There was a bathroom, a laundry room and to the right of the living room, a narrow staircase that led to the second floor where Lisa knew it was the main room, its own bathroom and a big dresser, and then the guest room in where she planned to sleep in.