Jade west painful life

We have a problem

It was sikowitz and he ran tordes me he then said "jade your father's here somewhere in New York looking for you!" He said very out of breath. "Look I don't acre anymore now leave me alone and let me record my song." He then left and we started over
~Im only 35, im only hole life is ahead of me
I hate my life because her parents hate me
My girlfriend tried to show her that's not how it seems
But every day I get lower in my self asteam
As I am singing my dad walks in but we don't notice
She lets me know that every night will have a brighter day
I even tried to over dose at the age of 15 and take my life away
I'm feeling hopeless there just sitting down besides my bed
Then my 3 year old daughter takes her hand and places it besides my head
My mom tried to hold me but with every touch I resist
And then she sees the scars that Barrie deep within my wrist
I'm feeling kind of numb, she begged and pleded and asked her "why"
I say it's the only way to control the pain I feel inside
She's asking her how long this has been going on as my dad walked in the room
I turned to my dad and scream way because you got me here, I'm feeling so damn helpless
I then went to school and sikowitz saw trying agian
I then say, "it's been a while, I guess I need better luck
Then sikowitz screams at her "jade never cut!"
Nobody seems to get me, I feel like I'm on my own
I then hear, but listen pretty lady you don't have to be alone. So jade don't cut, jade don't cut, don't cut
You can do anything just don't cut
It never got better so I sent my sister a text "I love you with my body,heart and soul to death" and hit send and I grabbed a pair of siscors and cut myself till it went black
Then we stoped for the day bc I have to pick up storm. I could see that Clair was crying bc she never had heard anything about my past, my dad had tears in his eyes and I was sobbing I then walked out and hugged Clair Intel I saw my dad and that made me very pissed. I walked over to him and told him "What the fuck are you doing here?!?!? Go back to stupid LA!!" I then storm out and get in the car and drive to school to get storm. I walked into the classroom my makeup still a bit off and you could tell I had been crying. Storm then runs over to me and I pick her up and leave. As we were walking down the hallway I put her down and get her coat on and mine. When beck was hiding behind a wall listing to me. When storm asked me "Mommy what's wrong, were you crying?" "Yes hunny I was crying" "why were you crying mommy"? "I was recording a song about my past and my depression baby nothing to worie about mommy's fine". I say as I pick her back up. Becks muoth dropped when he saw that I had a daughter and that I had depression he also saw a bit of my cut marks.