All The Right Moves

All The Right Moves- Chapter 35

"You were kicking ass at work and we had happened to go to the lodge for a break with the Bradley's, including Ethan's cousin Mitch and our friend Jack."

"Jack from high school?" Charlie interrupted.

"We're still friends with him?" She added.

Nodding, I continued, "We were out there just doing our thing and one thing led to the next and we had our first kiss."

She shook her head, "Exactly like how we had ours now."

"Yeah, that was completely unplanned. I had no idea that that was going to happen when we went last month. It was pure coincidence".

More like fate I thought.

Her face looked torn, as if her head and body were fighting each other.

"Your company had partnered with my football team so that you coordinated all the events for us. You did a lot for the team but my favorite was the night your team did the Gala in New York."

She might be overwhelmed with this one, but I knew I had to tell her.

I had to tell her everything now or I would really stand a chance of losing her.

"You're meaning to tell me that you've recreated that night for us? Is that why you kept saying that? That night was epic to us, for that reason?" She asked in disbelief.

"I wanted to let you relive some of our greatest moments together. I felt as if that was deserved at the least considered the situation that we're in." I replied.

Shaking her head profusely, "You kept hinting at me all this time. And I'm just an idiot, once again not knowing a damn thing about my own life. How f*cking pathetic."

She looked angry, but more so defeated.

Her shoulders slouched and her eyes wore a pained expression.

My heart broke at the sight.

I felt so angry at myself for making her feel this way.

I never wanted to see her upset, ever.

Telling her more about some of the things we did together, she finally asked a question I had been nervous on answering.

"Did we have sex?" She asked bluntly.

I grabbed her hand and felt my heart in my throat as I spoke, "Yeah, we did."

A silence fell over us.

I knew this would hit her hard.

I gathered her expression and wanted to console her all at once.

A single teardrop fell from her eye and I wanted to kill myself for ever being the cause of it.

She was silent for a good minute.

I reached out to grab her hand.

"Charlie.." I began.

She interrupted me, "I had been looking forward in telling you how I felt. How I felt now, about us. And here I am finding out that we had already been in love prior, been intimate, and god knows what else, and I can't for the life of me remember any of those moments."

Her tears were slowly streaming down her face and with every one that fell, felt like a knife was stabbing me in my chest.

F*ck me.

"Do you have any idea what that's like Drew? To not remember times like those that are meant to be cherished forever? You'll never be able to understand the emotions I'm feeling," She cried.

"Baby, I don't think you get it. Every day since I got that phone call, I prayed to God it was me instead of you in that fire. I will never forgive myself for you being in that position and for putting you where you are now." I shrieked.

I felt my heart in my throat as I spoke and I couldn't muster how I was feeling.

Her voice broke as she spoke out, "We were serious. That just about breaks my damn heart Drew."

Grabbing her and consoling her was just about the only thing I felt was right in the moment.

She struggled against my hold but I didn't let her refuse. I clenched my eyes tight as I pulled her tightly against my chest.

I let her cry on my shoulder for a few minutes. I struggled hard to contain my emotions.

I didn't deserve her.

I deserved to have been in her position, not her.

"Is that it?" She stated, breaking the silence.

Knowing this last bit would affect her, I knew I had to rip the band aid off.

Reaching into my pocket, I grabbed the necklace I had held onto the last few months everywhere I had went.

She looked at me confused as I placed the necklace in her hand.

"I hadn't actually formally proposed to you, but we had a mutual understanding about where we were." I breathed out to her as she glared at the ring in her hand.

Her eyes opened wide and she glared from the ring to me several times.

She sucked in a deep breath, "No."

She shook her head in disbelief.

"We... were engaged?" She asked mortified.

I shot her a sad smile, "Yeah, we were. We are."

She shook her head, "No, no no no." She said repeatedly.

I grabbed her to hold her steady yet she was refusing to let me stop her.

"I can't. This is too much." She stated freaking out.

I felt my heart in my throat.

"Just breathe, baby. Breathe." I stated trying to calm her down.

"How can you tell me to breathe when I feel like I'm f*cking drowning Drew!" She laughed out sarcastically as the tears continued streaming down.

"It's one thing after another! How the hell could you have kept this from me?!" She shouted.

She was pacing the room, necklace in hand, as I stood in front of the couch trying to calm her down.

"I cannot believe this right now." She continued, "I've been mentally trying to grasp the fact that everyone around me had known about everything and hadn't filled me in but what on Earth type of Soap opera am I living in right now."

She stared at the ceiling and let her tears profusely run down her cheeks.

I had no clue what the hell to do. How the hell I was supposed to fix this.

"I know that this is a lot of information right now, but I couldn't hold back on it. Not anymore. I never wanted to hurt you, Charlie. It kills me to know that I ever hurt you to begin with." I told her truthfully.

I felt my voice trembling.

My God this was painful.

"Is there anything else?" She spat out.

I held it together.

Or at least I tried to.

"No," I responded.

Nodding, she walked past me right into her room and slammed the door.

I had a feeling that she wasn't coming out any time soon.