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Chapter fifteen: This is just odd

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𝙏𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙞𝙨 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙤𝙙𝙙

I don't even want to be here.

It's the day of Cami's party. I have no idea where she is, so I'm currently sat on her living room sofa alone, music blaring into my ear from the speakers next to me. Red solo cups dot the expanse of the house. The air is stuffy and it's mixed with the smell of alcohol and nicotine, making me feel sick.

I watch as people dance drunkenly then cringe and look away as I realise they're grinding on each other. I swear I'm the only person not drunk in the whole house. Due to my medication, if I've taken any recently, I can't drink alcohol or else I may overdose and die or something.

Seeing people make out wherever I go doesn't make me feel any better either; it just reminds me of the events that happened yesterday.

I can't believe Alex would do something like that to me, yet at the same time, I'm not surprised. Alex is cruel. Judging by his actions yesterday, it's clear to see that my feelings and I are just a big fucking joke to him and he thinks it's OK to mess about with them.

Pretending to be my friend to bully me about whatever the fuck he wanted to bully me about was one thing. Kissing me so that he could fuck with my head and probably woo me into being friends with him again to continue his messed up scheme with his messed up friends was another.

He has most likely told them this lie about me kissing him, and not the other way round so that they could make fun of me or something. Initially, I would have thought they would be trying to make fun of me for being a faggot, but since Alex has all the sudden come out as bisexual and they're all shockingly accepting of him, that's something I can be relieved to say is crossed off my list.

Or maybe Alex coming out is part of his plan.

I get it now. Alex has told the world that he's bisexual when he's not so he could kiss me, and God knows how many other poor guys, to see if I liked it and kissed back. Then he'd say to his friends that I enjoyed it. Therefore, they'd know I like guys, with him previously telling them that his 'I am bisexual' tweet was fake, so they'd out me. With him being like the most popular guy in school, anyone would believe what he says.

Holy shit, he's going to out me.

It feels as though the space around me is enclosing on me, and I need to leave. My panic, mixed with the loudness of the music and chatter, as well as the crowded and stuffy atmosphere, is not doing me well. I didn't even want to come, and I know that it's Cami's birthday, but she should know that sometimes I'm not able to do parties, and I should have said that. I need air and something to take my mind of this, anything to take my mind off this. I can't deal with it right now.