Mystery Girl's Poems; A Dimensional Emotion

CPR 🌹

You save me
And I don't know how to repay you
Though I've tried to jump again
You came through
You've made me feel alive
I feel like you
You've made me realise
That I am indeed not you

You've made me recognise that I should be the one to confide in
You've made me patient
And as you train, as I wait on my due date
But this journey is as my own
But entirely I hate feeling alone

I hate that I am drowning and you sit there you look at the end
I am at the complete edge to death
You scream my name and I revive
I pull through the current for me to survive

I would have probably been gone
But you taught me how to swim
Peace I have always sought but you've taught me that there is no point if there is no meaning

You showed me that my life is worth living
You showed me that a broken heart should be giving
If ten times given many then twenty times you'll be given plenty

No one understands me the way you do
There's no reason to lie
I've never related to anyone like I've related to you
And that's the truth

But the worst of it all is that you and I are so far from each other
But good that we feel one another
We are twins of two different spaces
Twins one of the same travelling to different places

And I wish I could take you with me
I wish you could take me with you
I wish I could hold your hand
Wish we could switch hearts but keep the face
Change my ways; play a different game
Trade lives
I wish I could understand compassion
I wish friendly was my fashion
As psychology is my passion

But the love within me has deteriorated
And the ice began and had became solid
Keeping everything inside me frozen
And it slowly melts
And slowly shows how I am; broken
But quickly I readjust to the cold so I can cover my insecurities
Quickly in the moments I need to freeze
It's a heated battle between your teachings and me

The light in my cracks have been dulled so dark
Nothing is possible to be seen through the crevices
And I can barely hear the ring of my notifications a reminder that you keep you leaving messages
I need love as much as a blessing is
But is my one true need a necessity

And as my joyful moments wind in the air
I'd rather let go because the thought of being hurt once more is one I can't bare
But it feels like CPR everytime you're near