I'm a Succubus

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"That's because only Cara saw" I say making her confused "how come?" She asks making me look down at my lap

"I wasn't exactly in the best place and I had a breakdown" I say and I look back up at her

"So I shaved my hair off" I say making her frown "after Cara saw me like that and laughed, she help me glue my hair on multiple hats so nobody would laugh at me like she did" I say making Lauren look at me sadly and she grabs my hands

"After few months had passed my hair grow back and everything was going back to normal" I say as I feel her scoot closer to me making me smile feeling her comfort me with her hand on the back of my neck

"I shouldn't of asked... I'm sorry" she says making me look at her "it's okay and I would prefer to tell you rather then Cara slip up and tell you because she probably exaggerate" I say making Lauren nod agree with me

"If you don't mind me asking and you don't have to answer this but... Why did you shave you hair off?" She asks making me smile at her telling her it's alright

"Well... your in for quite the story" I say making her nod and get comfy next to me as I start telling her

"I shaved it off because i didn't want the attention from everyone, I had just hit puberty and started... Glowing up I guess you could says and they started asking out and saying I'm pretty and saying 'what a beautiful woman you will turn out to be' or 'one day your have a wonderful husband by your side' or other things that where more... Graphic and then people started making these expectations for me that I knew i couldn't reach and I tried... for so long to be the best of the best but I couldn't do it, it was all so sudden and I was naive to believe that I needed to be what they told me to be and to do what they told me to do, I wanted it all to just... Go away and disappear, so what would a young naive little girl do when she needed help... Go to her friends and that is exactly what I did... I went to my friend at the time... Britney and asked for her help and she gave me advice or what I thought was advice but I was to blind to see that she was just jealous of the popularity I had gained, she wanted to be popular like me to be the perfect doll everyone wanted me to be... She told me... That if I wanted it all to just leave me alone all I had to do... Was" I stare out into the room remembering her words

"Shave your hair off" I hear Lauren say making me slowly nod and look at her, I just told her something only Cara knows about me not even James knows

"And that's exactly what I did I didn't think anything of it until after Cara saw me like that and laughed then I had realized what I had done to myself and why Britney told me to do that then I ended up... Give up on everything and everyone, I stopped caring about what they thought of me or about me and what they thought I should be, then I started looking for the real me the me I am now" I say look at her seeing her nodding meaning she listened to everything I had just said to her

She doesn't say anything and I'm not surprised because I wouldn't know what to say either

"Well I... I don't know what to say to that but what I will say... Is I will never expected you to be something that you're not nor will I force you to be something you're not because to me you are perfect just the way you are and i don't want you to change a thing about yourself to try and make someone like you or dislike you" she says holding my hand and rubbing my leg with her other hand for comfort making me give her a small smile

"I know babe" I say taking hold of her hand that is holding mine and squeezing it giving her reassurance that I understand her words

"How about we watch some movies instead of talk about me being bald" I ask her making her nod and I grab the remote as we get comfy and she cuddles into my side while we watch movies, after a movie or two I hear a ding meaning that the food is done so I wiggle out of Lauren's grip and get the food out the oven and dish it up for me and her

It wasn't the best but it still tasted great and I think Lauren would say the same as she has some lasagna on the corner of her mouth making me grab a napkin and wipe the corner of her mouth seeing her face turn a little red making me smile at her cuteness

All in all I think the date went well as we got to know more about each other and spend time with each and soon Lauren and I start getting tired so we end up going to bed cuddles up to each other

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I wake up feeling happy for no reason... Apart from having a goddess by my side every time I wake up making me feel like the most luckiest woman on earth and hell

Tomorrow I have to go back to school... Well I don't have to as the principal gave me an extra day of after what happened but I need to keep my grades up and sooner or later I need to face my problems face on might as well get it over and done with plus I'm a grown woman... I can deal with this... I think and hope