Light In His Darkness

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Mia Martinez

Noise rang out through the room it was loud high pitch. When two arms wrapped around me

"I'm not letting you go again"Jax whisper into my ear

My eyes opened I was in my room, my room In Jax's, my head aching, I went to get up but Jax's arm was wrapped around me, I turned to face him "what took you so long" I asked "I was waiting for you" I rubbed my finger across his lip

"I was always coming to get you" he said "always" he leaned forward and kissed my lips staying for a second before pulling away "Mia"

"Your family" he started

"Don't say it" tears started forming

"I'm so sorry Mia"

I unraveled myself from him, and stood looking out the window "I couldn't save both, I chose you"

"Why me" I pushed him back, but him not budging "Why me" my voice was angry "they were my everything and you picked me, someone you don't care about when you could have saved five you only saved one" I look at him towering over me "I would have rather died then let you save me for them"

"Leave" I shouted, he went to touch my arm but then pulled away rubbing his hand threw his hair and walking out

I stayed quite and looked out the window

For the next month I didn't see Jax I stayed in my room mostly and when I left I made sure he wasn't around, I hated the taught of him picking me over my family. I had no one, from me having a huge loving family I had absolutely no one now.

My Netflix binge watching had actually made me bored of movies, I had watched nearly every movie, and sometimes watched them on repeat.

I was in the gym it was late I'd been in here for 3 hours, I was tired but I didn't want to stop, I knew I had to finish so I decided to throw some knives. Once I started my taughts went back

My family

All the good memories, how I'll never see them again, I couldn't go to the funeral, I had grieved now I was just mad, mad that Nick never got to feel my pain, mad that I wasn't the one to kill him. Mad at Jax

Jax

I couldn't be mad at him he came he saved me, I felt so bad that I lashed out with him. I was in pain and I pushed him away. All I wanted was him now, him to tell me he wanted to save me, he hated the taught I was gone

Fuck

My eyes looked down at my hand

I had slit my hand with the knife

"Fucking taught's" I muttered to my self, I took my t-shirt off wrapping it around my hand, it was a deep cut but I didn't think I needed stitches

"Mia"

"Let me see"

Fucking hell Jax

"It's fine" I said trying to walk away from him

He grabbed my arm "unraveling my shirt from my hand "fuck Mia, you clumsy fucker" he looked at me

My heart stopped

His eyes them fucking eyes, he had grown a stubble he looked older with it, his lips

I wanted them

No fuck

I pulled my eyes away away from him

"Come"'

He walked with me into the kitchen and lifted me up on the counter, he opened up the first aid kit

"This is going to sting" he cleaned the wound and started bandaging it up

"How'd you know I did it" I asked looking at him bandaging my hand "I taught you weren't in"

"Cameras, the meeting I was supposed to be at cancelled"

He finished wrapping it and started to clean up the counter

"I'm sorry" I held his shoulder stopping him from cleaning putting him in front of me, in between my legs "I shouldn't have pushed you away, I was so mad, not at you but at Nick and I blamed you, I'm so sorry Jax" I pulled him into a hug

He hugged me back "i missed you" he whispered

"I taught he was gonna fuck you or even kill you" he shook his head pulling back but keeping his hands on my waist "I had to follow you when I saw him leaving with you, I should have got someone to get your family but he had you and I need you Mia"he said "I just didn't think, I was only thinking of you"

My hands reached to his hair pulling him towards me, my hands intertwined in his hair, his lips met mine, the minute they met it felt like we were both hungry for each other. The lust i was waiting for off him he was giving it to me, his body pressed against mine and my legs wrapped around him

He lifted me up and carried me up the stairs never breaking the kiss, pushing me against walls making sure I felt his growing member against me