Your POV
You looked my direction taking your eyes of the road for only a second to smile at me. "Calum why are you staring at me? It's creepy" I laughed. "Sorry, did you know I love you?" "I love you too "
The truck swerved hitting us. I don't remember much but I do remember the sirens , lights and being transferred to the hospital. "Calum! Calum! " I kept on yelling his name . "Where's calum!?!" I woke up in a white room surrounded by a doctor, Luke , Michael and Ashton. I sat up pain running through my back and head. "How are you feeling?" The doctor asked "where's calum?" The room stayed quiet no answer I began to think the worst. "Can you guys answer me where is he? Is he ok?" I looked from Michael to Luke to Ashton." Y/n" Michael sighed. "Y/n, um he didn't -" Michael broke off looking to Ashton for help. "It wasn't your fault" Ashton said. "Wh-where?" I was unable to finish thinking I would throw up just saying those words that I wouldn't believe until they said it.
It couldn't be true.
"Y/n he didn't make it" Luke whispered. "No" I shook my head immediately. "He's not- he isn't" I gave up, feeling faint. I looked at the doctor waiting him to say this was some kind of prank. "He was dead when he arrived ," he informed me sadly. "I'll give you some time before her checkup," he said to my friends before leaving the room. I sat in silence, to shocked to have been feeling any type of emotion. I felt like my heart had stopped entirely.
It was my fault. It was my fault.
"It was my fault" I managed to choke out as hot tears stung my eyes. "No it's wasn't" Michael assured me. "It was the other driver y/n." I shook my head. "No! It wasn't! It was mine I distracted him!" I yelled. "Y/n please take a deep breath, it.wasnt.your.fault do you understand?" Michael said to me grabbing both my hands. "Why? Why did this have to happen I wanted to have a family with him he even told me he wanted to name his first child. If it was a girl Sarah, if it was a boy Robert. Why did this have to happen we could've been the happiest family" I said crying even more. Tears where streaming down the boys faces as well. "We can make it through this y/n we can if we all try together."
2 weeks. 2 weeks have passed since the car accident and calums death.
Me and the boys and all of Calum's friends were at his funeral. Yes. His funeral. It's hard to process everything. I watched as they lowered his coffin into the ground. I cried and cried. I fell to my knees and threw a white flower into the hole. "I'm going to miss you Calum I think we're all going to miss you , yes I wanted to form a family with you but I guess that isn't possible anymore. I just want you to know that I love you. Remember the last words you said to me? You said you loved me and I said I loved you too and I do and will forever love you." I said this while on my knees looking directly to calum's coffin which he was now laying peacefully inside. Luke, Michael and Ashton said some meaningful things to Calum one by one. Everyone else did the same. Once everyone left I stayed for a little longer.
"Y/n? You going to stay a bit longer?" Ashton asked me. "Uh yeah I'll be in the car in a few minutes." I stared at the ground not being able to see Calum's coffin anymore. I just looked at the words on the his stone and looked and looked for what seemed eternity. "I'm going to miss you"
