Can There Be Love [Book 2]

Chapter 22

Nicki Minaj POV

"Y'know, 'member ten years ago... We were twenty-one years old and shit. Tryna make it big, make you the star you always wanted tobe?" Safaree said, wrappin' his arms 'round my waist.

We both lay inna messy bed just lookin' straught up at the ceiling as we continue to have a conversation.

"Mhm," noddin' my head while mumblin'. I ain't really feel like talkin' to Safaree at all 'cause fo' real fo' real I really wanted him to go. I need some time to think things through.

"You was fuckin' 'round tryna make it be as a star by all those mixtapes... I ain't never expected us to make it that far. Well, you make it that far as the girl you are now." Safaree chuckles.

"Even tho' we had our fall outs and.... And despite our differences, I'll always be there and love you Nicki." Safaree says.

"I'll always do," he adds.

I just sit myself up on bed when he puts his hand on my knee, so I move his hand off my knee.  First thing's first is we ain't even sleep together I mean we did but no sex involved tho'. But, we are talkin' 'bout us, like the past and all that yet no matter what I will always have love in my heart fo' this man.

I mean when you're wit' somebody whether fo' a day, week, month, or year(s), than you fall fo' that person... It's hard to let go. Yet, Safaree hurt me by throwin' me under the bus and stickin' his keys in other ignitions.

He lost me wit' the first very time he did,  and, vice versa, if anythin', I wanna take things slow.

After relaizin', I am so done wit' Safaree and I no longer want anythin' to do wit' him, but I want some closer. Before lettin' go, I wanna hear him out, and I wanna have my questions answered; vice versa.

"Safaree... We been together fo' so long. What happened? Like why did you cheat? How long have you been cheatin'?" I ask him, fearin' fo' the worst. Ion why I even asked him 'bout cheatin', but, I did.

He sits himself straight up on my bed and sighs harshly. "Two years," he responses. 

"Ion why, but, it happened. I made a mistake and ion why," he says, which, crushes me.

"Two years Safaree? Two long years?" My voice hoarse.

"Prolly over fifty times... Ion Nick." Safaree shrugs.

"Damn you Safaree..." I begin to break a bit. I have to remind myself to stay calm 'cause that's the only thing I can do.

"Wow! I just can't believe.... Like why?" I add, shakin' my head.

"So what 'bout you, Nick? How long you been cheatin' on me?" Safaree asks, completely ignorin' my question.

"Prolly like three, four, five times, but it wasn't no damn  fifty times. " I said a lil' bit in anger and hurt. Damn this dude been cheatin' fo' so long.

"I need fo' you to go. I gotta get myself ready fo' the VMAs and the photo shot and all that." I said, wipin' the lil' tears under my eyes.

"I just want space. Make sure you got yo' things and be out." I said.

Safaree just nods his head and gets from up off of my bed as he just picks up the lil' things of his while he looks straight at me. I turn my head to keep from lookin' at him when he just smacks his teeth. Shakin' my head and bringin' my knees up to my chest and droppin' my face on 'em. Y'know two wrongs don't make a right since I cheated too, than again, he drove me to it. I want him to be gon' so I can get myself ready fo' performance and of course make things right wit' August.

I ain't talk to him almost the whole day and now it's 'bout that time fo' me to go down and have pictures taken. Fo' the single pulled from my album, The Pink Print, my song, Anaconada.

"I be back later on to get the rest of my things since you want me out right now. Good luck wit' yo' performance, Nick." Safaree said.

I just nod my head.

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Finally! That's done wit' so now I am there at the VMAs to get down on my shit fo' tonight man. Err'body here is too damn excitied, and, so am I too 'cause I already got err'thang ready too. I know August is somewhere back here but I ain't really like find him, plus I was callin' him nonstop. Ion what's wit' him prolly 'cause he mad wit' me or whatever but he needa get the fuck over it. All I wanted was some space and he actin' like this so maybe we should call this shit off.

"Aye," I smile and give Drake a hug.

"Hey Nicki," he hugs me back .

"Ready fo' the performance?" Drake asks me.

"Yeah I am, but, have you seen August? I needa talk to him but ion where he at." I ask Drake.

"Um... Um, I think he back there inna...  Oh, wait there he at." Drake says, pointin' straight down from me. He talkin' to Juicy J.

I walk straight down to August and tap him onna shoulder. "Hey August," I smile when he just stares at me.

"Hey J," wavin' to Juicy J.

"Hey Nicki," he hugs me than walks away. I pull August to the side so I can talk to him mire privately.

"I been tryna call you.... What's up?" I said.

"I know," all August says to me.

"So, why you ain't respond?" I ask him.

"You wanted space," noddin' his head.

"I mean I get that but I been textin' and callin' and you just went ghost on me." I said.

"'Cause I need space." August said.