Humdard. [Sequel]

Thirteen.

Will be publishing a new story this weekend hopefully! Xx

Enjoy the chapter. Hope ya'll don't hate it lol

Anaaya.

Kya tum jaante ho? Kitna mushkil hai ye sab? Tumhare baghair, is tarah..akele. Jab main tum se pehli baar mili thi, us waqt ye nahin pata tha ke tum mere itne qareeb hojayoge. Itne qareeb ke saans lena bhi mushkil hojaye.

Do you know how difficult it is? All of this? Without you. Alone. When I met you for the first time, I didn't know that you'll be this close to my heart. So close that I'd find it hard to even breathe right.

Tum meri kisi ki hui dua ka sila ho, Hassan. Tum meri zindagi main pata nahin kis tarah aaye, ke mujhe khud se zyada pyaar tum se ho gaya.

Sometimes I think that you're the reward to some invocation of mine. I don't understand how you came into my life, how you suddenly entered in a way that I started to love you more than I loved myself.

Tumhari baatein, Tumhara dil, Tumhari beparwahi, Tumhara ghussa, Tumhara chehra, tum. Har tarah se mukammal. Aur mere. Sirf mere.

Your words, your heart, your negligency, your anger, your face, you. Complete in every form.

And mine.

All mine.

Tumhare baghair zindagi guzaarne ka pehle kabhi nahi socha tha, magar in do mahinon main bauhat socha.

I had never really thought about spending life without you before, but I have, a lot..in these two months.

Socha ke agar tumhain kuch ho gaya to main kya karungi. Insaan chala jaata hai, aur zindagi katt bhi jaati hai..magar aisi azeeyat wali zindagi khuda kabhi kisi ko na day.

I thought about it all. What would I do if I lost you? I know people come and go from this world and life keeps moving on, but the sheer pain, the suffering, its unimaginable. May God never give that kind of suffering to anyone.

Aaj tumhari ankhein khuli, to mujhe bhi mehsoos hua ke shayad meri saans wapis a gayi hai.

Today, when you opened your eyes, it felt like, maybe I had gotten my breath back. Maybe now, I could finally breathe.

Shayad meri zindagi main khushi wapis a gayi hai.

Maybe happiness has returned into my life.

Jaanti hoon, aagey raasta bauhat mushkil hai, dushwari bhara aur bauhat sakht.

And I know, I know that the path that I'll have to walk on now, it's hard, it's difficult.

Magar main tayaar hoon. Har tarah se.

But I'm ready. In every way.

Tumhare sath. Tumhare liye.

With you. For you.

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It took a long time, to me, it felt like days had gone by, and there was no sign of the doctor. I knew it had changed from day to night and I knew they had him in there, treating him the way they had planned to.

But I grew impatient and more worried with each passing day. My tears had dried and my heart had started to gain some courage.

But at the same time, it felt like too much.

I tapped my feet on the ground, noticing how my shoes made sound on the marble floor.

It took another half an hour as I yawned once again, growing more and more impatient, that I heard footsteps approaching me.