Heartbreak Hotline [ON GOING]

Chapter XL - One last kiss, goodbye

Brianna's POV

"No.. No, it can't be! You're not breaking up with me!" Sigaw ko. Lumapit ako lalo sakanya at niyakap s'ya ng mahigpit kahit ayaw n'ya. I just want to keep him close. I want to hug him... Just once. Just one last hug.

Nabigla ako nang hawakan n'ya ang magkabilang braso ko at hinila iyon palayo upang mapabitaw ako sa pagkakayakap sakanya. "Please don't make this any harder than it already is."

"Then why is this so easy for you!? Why is it so easy for you to leave without even putting up a fight!?" Sigaw ko habang iyak lalo ng iyak.

"Without putting up a fight!? Brianna, I am fighting for us everyday that it feels like I'm living in a war! I am fighting for us everyday... Hindi porket hindi ko sinasabi sayo ay hindi ko na ginagawa.." Nagulat ako sa biglang pagsigaw n'ya. S-So s'ya pa ang galit ngayon? S'ya na ang mang-iiwan s'ya pa ang galit!?

"Right. You've fought every single day. That's why you're now tired. Nagsawa ka na." I said an wiped my tears.

"Brianna, no. I will never get tired kung ikaw ang pag-uusapan." Dang! I hate him! Bakit sinabi pa n'ya yan! He should've just left already. Dapat ay hindi na s'ya nagsalita ng matatamis na bagay dahil sa bandang huli naman ay mang-iiwan parin s'ya.

"If you're not tired then why give up on me?"

"Because in this relationship... I learned to fight for someone you love but at the same time, I learned when to stop fighting. Sa mga panahon na nalaman kong kapatid kita at pinagpatuloy ko ang paglaban para sayo... Patuloy kang umiyak. Patuloy kang nagkulong sa kwarto mo at hindi kumain at umiyak lang ng umiyak. Patuloy kan nasaktan. You've suffered a lot no'ng mga panahong pinaglalaban kita so I figured maybe it's time to give up. Yes, Brianna, you heard me right. I don't want to see you in pain anymore. Not because of me. You deserve to be happy at alam ko na hindi ka magiging masaya kung boyfriend mo ako. Dahil kuya mo ako. Let's face facts. I am your brother." He said with a cold face. So kahit na nakipagbreak s'ya... Ako parin ang iniisip n'ya. All of a sudden felt guilty. Of blaming him. Of accusing him of hurting me. Everything.

"Pero hindi mo ba naisip na mas lalo lang akong masasaktan kapag umalis ka? Kapag iniwan mo ako? Kapag tinapos mo na lahat ng pinagsamahan natin?"

"Naisip ko, Brynn. Naisip ko lahat. And that just made me want to leave even more. Break up and leave you and you will get hurt. Pero isang beses lang yun. Isan sakit lang yun. Darating yung panahon na makakamove-on ka, makakahanap ng bago, at mawawala na ang lahat ng sakit. Pero kapag pinagpatuloy pa natin ang relasyong ito... You're life will turn into a living hell. You'll just keep on crying and the pain will never stop." He said, again, keeping that cold face on.

"I hate you. I hate you so much! I hate you for not fighting harder! Kung gumawa ka pa ng paraan then the pain would stop! Kung pinagpatuloy mo lang ang pakikipag-usap sakin, it would stop! Please.. Don't break up with me. Papayag naman ako na pumunta ka sa malayo but please, Caleb, don't end things with me. I'm begging you. I can suffer longer. I can suffer more if it means being in a relationship with you. If it's you, it's okay if I suffer." I said at naiyak na naman. I don't want him to break up with me. I love him so much.

"I made up my mind, Brynn. I'm breaking up with you." He walked closer to me and held my waist as he whispered the words, "Can I kiss you? Just one last time?"