Drowning / SM

Chapter 62

"Hi! Good morning baby! I miss you so much but I'm just calling you to say congrats on your new song! It's amazing and you're doing a great job which will make you be even more famous! I love you so much!" I hear her annoying voice coming out of the phone before I even get the time to check who it is and her joy makes me angrier.

I don't say anything in turn, just trying to figure out if it's real or if it's only a dream.

I must be dreaming.

He can't tell me sweet things late at night and then his ex-girlfriend calls him the next morning.

A knot starts forming in my throat and my jaw is contracting really hard but I stay calm and answer.

"Hi, Jenny." I simply say because if I add anything else, either I'd break down in tears or I'd shout at her.

And I don't want any of those scenarios to come true.

Jenny speaks again but at the same time, Shawn gets out of the bathroom while drying his hair with a towel in his hands which makes the tear I was holding back from the beginning, flow down on my cheek.

"Babe?... What's going on?" He asks.

That one tear that represents my disappointment.

He looks at me confused but the only thing I do is to get up and walk to him to hold him out the phone with still Jenny on it. I don't say anything and get out of the room.

"Oh no" He sighs when he finally understands.

I leave him in the doorframe of his room and get to the living room to pack all my things so I can finally get out of this condo where the atmosphere went heavy.

"Alyssa, wait!" I hear him running from his bedroom.

He reaches me seconds later, with his phone still in his hand but I can see that the call ended. He puts it down on the coffee table.

"Alyssa, what are you doing?" He asks and stops me by holding my shoulders with his huge hands.

"I'm leaving so you can get some private space with your lover," I say, trying not to cry.

I can't cry. I can't show him how weak I am when it comes to him.

"What are you talking about? She's not my lover! she doesn't mean anything to me! You're the only one I promise!" He says but I pull him away with my hands against his chest.

"Stop lying Shawn..."

"I'm not lying! I promise!" He raises up his voice when I start putting on my jacket but I don't add anything. "Hey stop! you're not going anywhere... You can't just flee without even trying to understand!" He says and grabs my arm when I try to open the front door.

I can't hold back my anger anymore. He can't just think that some stupid promises will wipe off what happened.

"I'm not fleeing! It's obvious enough when your Jenny with a red heart calls you and says that she misses you a lot as much as she loves you! You can't defend yourself while you named her like that on your phone! Why would you name her with a heart huh?" I shout at him because I just don't want to argue.

"She was named like that when we were still together! I just forgot to change it. She means nothing to me, Alyssa. I promise." He says and cups my cheek but I turn my head away.

"Then you never got over her, right? If you didn't change her name, because you can't forget that kind of things." I say and look straight into his eyes.

I'm not the type of person who gets angry for little things but this isn't little since his ex that I hate with all my heart calls him to tell him she loves him.

I'm going crazy with them both and I don't like that.

"What? Of course, I got over her! Alyssa! Listen to me when I say that I promise you that there's nothing left in me for her!" He gets closer to me but I keep stepping back.

"Why is she calling you Shawn? And I already told you many times 'no Promises'! You know I don't believe in them but you keep on promising stupid things!" I shout again with, this time, tears in my eyes and punting with my finger on his chest.

"I keep on promising stupid things because I love you!" He admits, louder than I shouted.

"And I'm scared because I love you!" I say almost in a whisper and with my cracking voice.

What he said hit me as a truck against a wall and nothing else comes out of my mouth.

"what?" He asks, not realizing what I said and looking down at me with his widened eyes. Those eyes for which I fell in love.

I close my eyes, letting a tear drop down. All the pressure falls away, living my heart lifted up by the love.

Why does she still do this to me?

What is her purpose?

"Shawn..." I say and hide my face in my hand.

He surrounds me with his arms to pull me into a hug with my head leaning against his chest.

"I love you and I don't want that girl to ruin everything only because she thinks that there is still something between her and me. Just stop doubting."

"How am I supposed to fully trust you when your Jenny with a heart keeps on calling you?" I ask and pull away from his embrace.

I step back and look straight into his eyes but he doesn't say anything. He knows I'm right. He knows how I am scared to be abandoned.

"You know what..." He starts and walks to his living room but comes back seconds later with his phone in his hands.

He's stepping forward to me, unlocking his phone and checking something on it.

"What are you doing?" I ask and frown, trying to understand.

"I'm deleting her number and blocking her so she won't cause any trouble between us..." He admits, probably looking for her phone number to delete it.

"Shawn... You don't have to..." I chuckle and hug him with my arms around his waist.

"I can even break this phone, throw it in the bin and buy an old phone with those million keys if it's enough to prove to you that I'm not lying. Maybe I should get back to the 90's to understand the way it works, right?" He says, moving his arms all around which makes me laugh really hard.

My stomach hurts so much he overreacts and turns this whole situation into derision.

"Shawn, stop..." I try to say in my laughter and he stops wriggling to put his hands on my cheeks and look straight into my eyes with that huge smile playing on his lips.

I stare at him with those tears in my eyes that are now flowing because of happiness and because of this dude, in front of me, who tries everything to make me smile.

That's why I fell.

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