Chew ✔

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Our shirts are ripped off, and for a split second I'm self cautious. What if he's grossed out by my rolls and bumps and crevices. He's built like a god- and I'm. I don't know what I am.

"You're so beautiful." He breathes, and I laugh in relief.

His hand make it's way down my shoulder, drawing closer at my waist, resting on my thigh. We breathe against each other heavily, until I lean in, closing the gap between us.

We give each other all we are. All our insecurities, all our deepest fears, wants, ambitions. Everything, so blindly- because of love. 

...

My eyes flutter open, landing on an alarm clock which reads, 3:12 am in a bright red- the only thing I can see in Will's dark room. 

I feel Will's arm resting carefully around my waist, and smile, hearing his soft snores against my ear.

"Will." I whisper pushing myself up into a sitting position. 

"Wha-what." He says, his eyes widening in alarm. His hair is all messed up, and he looks so undeniably cute- in a scruffy way. 

"I have to go." I murmur, fixing his hair. 

"Why." He groans sitting up too. His blanket rolls off his body- revealing his gorgeous abs.

"Because- it's late, and my mom thinks I'm at Anna's- so I should probably sneak over there."

"Stay." Will whispers grabbing onto my hand. 

"Maybe another day." I yawn. I roll my legs out off his bed, grabbing my shirt and pulling it over my head. 

Will kisses my shoulder gently- which literally making every nerve on my body stand up. He reaches his arm over, turning on his bed side lamp. 

"I love you." I whisper with a smile. Will responds by kissing the spot right behind my ear. Oh there goes the shivers again.

"Do you have any water?" I ask rubbing my eyes. 

"In my drawer." Will rolls over plopping a pillow over his head. I laugh softly as I open up his drawer.

My hands shovel through his mess, until something catches my eyes, and I take in a shaky breathe.

Zantrex, lipoloss, Leanmode, Miralax. Appetite suppresents. Diet Pills, laxatives.

My hands shovel through his entire collection off pills. My eyes scanning their labels, my breath catching at every new bottle I find.

"What are you-" Wills eyes widen, as he see's what I've found. "Shit."  He jumps out of bed, ripping them out of my hands.

"Why are you doing this to yourself!" I sob, tears rolling freely down my face.

"These are old- I don't-"

"No, no- no!" I stammer. "You're lying to me."

"Cira- I-"

"We have to call your therapist." I say shakingly, brushing off my tears. "Or your mom-"

"No- Cira-"

"Will. You have to get help!" I say, clutching onto his hands.

"No- no. Cira." Will's eyes look so pained, so panicked. He stammers, his voice wavering unsurely. 

"Will, we need to get you help- before things get really bad again." 

"No Cira."

"-You can beat this."

"Cira. Stop."

"I can't believe I haven't noticed. Why haven't I noticed? Have I not been there for you? Will- I'll always be here for you- I can't believe-"

"It's not about you!" Will roars, pushing my hands off of his. He paces around his room, his naked chest heaving- his breaths shaky and rough. 

"No- I know." I say- my voice cracking. "I didn't mean it like-"

"I don't care." He shouts, he runs a hand through his hair. "Get out."

"What?"

"Get out!' Will yells. "Get out of my life. God dammit- you're always on top of me. Suffocating me. I can't anymore." 

"Will. I'm sorry, I just want you to get better."

"Well I-" Will closes his eyes. "I don't want to."

"You don't seriously mean that." I say.

"Yeah. Yeah I do." Will says. "This- this is over."

"Will- I know this is a rough time for you-"

"Get out Cira!" 

My mouth opens- but no response comes to mind. I stare at him, his eyes so wide- vulnerable, his chest breathing in heavily. The way he looks at me with so much hatred. 

I grab my shoes, shoving my way out off his room, without glancing back. My throat is choked in painful rocks, tears threatening to spill. I slam into my car, resting my head against it's steering wheel, my sobs disturbing the early morning silence. I sob until I'm heaving- choking against my own madness. I'm drowning in my own tears. 

And no one can save me.

No one can save Will.

...

Hey guys!

Hope you liked this chapter!

I have a mild-concussion, so I don't

know how much I can write this week  :(

I had this chapter pre written tho, so ...

Comment what you think is gonna happen next!

-Marcella