Now Taming: Casanova - Book 2 (FIN)

Ever After 76 - Out of Control

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Hello Tamers, we're getting closer. Sa lahat ng may twitter or fb please use the hashtag #StarredEverAfter double R ha para mabasa ko kung anong nafefeel ng readers ko. Kung trip nyo lang naman. Wala naman pilitan eh hoho. Share me your hints, naiisip nyong final twists, who you'll ship up to the end. Ilabas nyo na ang hinaing nyo hanggat may oras pa hohohoho. O sya tama na :) Enjoy!

Ever After 76

Shar's

Two weeks ago, I was the happiest woman on earth. Lan already proposed to me and I accepted it. Sobrang saya ko ng gabing yun ng magdinner kami like we used to do sa nakalipas na isang buwan. Akala ko just like the ordinary days na kasama ko sya, it's the same thing. I know he's so busy with work kaya naman ako na mismo ang nagreach out sa kanya. Kasi alam kong mahal ko sya.

Until that happiness starts fading away. Hindi ko naman sya sinisisi na wala na syang oras sakin. I'm mature enough to know that when you reach a certain age like us, hindi katulad ng mga teenagers na sa love lang umiikot ang mundo mo. We have our priorities and preparations for the nearest future. Pero kahit na ipilit ko sa sarili ko na okay lang, at times hindi parin maiiwasan na masaktan.

I remember the first time na hindi sya sumipot sa lakad namin. We were suppose to be having a movie date pero ayun naghintay lang ako sa wala. And it happened so fast na namalayan ko na lang, kasama ko na si Jared watching a drive-in movie. Isang missed call lang ang nakita ko sa call register as I checked my phone ng matapos ang movie. Umuwi at natulog ako without bothering to send a message. Allowed naman akong magtampo diba? Isang text lang the next morning ang nakita ko saying he's sorry. And just like that, I forgave him. Okay lang walang problema. Sige okay lang. Kahit nang bisitahin ko sya sa pad nya that same morning, hindi ko na binanggit pa yun and pretended that I'm okay. Na naiintidihan ko sya. It worked and okay na ulit kami.

Pero hindi lang naman kasi once. Hindi ko inexpect na ang isang babae na malapit ng magpakasal will feel so alone and sad. Diba when you're getting married, sobrang saya mo at lahat ng bagay sa paligid mo parang magical. But I guess, not for me.

"Psst! Why are you here?"

"Ikaw bakit ka rin nandito? Sinusundan mo ba ko?"

"Wag kang magfeeling pwede? Kanina pa ko nandito bago ka pa dumating. Mukha ka lang alien na lutang kaya di mo napansin na nandito lang ako sa kabilang table"

"Ahh. Bakit mag-isa ka?"

"Hinihintay ko si Jade. Nagpadye ng buhok"

"Really??" tumango sya sakin. "I'm glad that things are going so well between you and Jade!"

"Walang humihingi ng opinyon mo"

"Hay naku kahit kelan di ka parin nagbabago"

I remember that day na nakita ko sya sa coffee shop sa mall, I was waiting for Lan which was supposed to be our date. I waited for Lan to fetch me pero nakaalis na si Jared at lahat...walang Lan na sumundo sakin. Nagtext sya sakin few hours later na imemeet nila urgently ang Yuri. Yung band na nakuha nila for LD Media. Akala ko kapag nandito ako sa Pilipinas, ipprioritize nya ko kasi three months lang naman ako dito. Pero two weeks na lang, babalik na ko sa Paris but look what's happening. We should be planning our wedding at this moment. Pero hanggang sa pagsketch lang ng wedding gown ko ang progress ko.

Like the past times, pinatawad ko na naman sya at paulit ulit sinasabi sa sarili ko na okay lang. But it happened again...and again...and again. Ilang beses pa kong naghintay sa wala tuwing may lakad kami. Pero I understand naman. I guess? Lan will always be my favorite person in the world. Gusto ko syang intindihin pero hindi naman maiiwasan na masaktan when I feel neglected.