The Nonbinary Notebook

The One Where I'm :/

April 8, 2018

9:35 AM

I'M BAAAACK!

It's been a hot minute. Mostly because nothing very substantial has been happening in my transition -- or my life in general, really.

I'm gonna do some (admittedly tiny) updates anyway!

- I have an LG phone now and not an iPhone, so I don't have the round bullet thingy anymore. So I'm using "-" now instead

- I've been feeling really down about my dysphoria lately, and about how slow my transition is going. Here are some reasons why, that may or may not depress you:
1) I have two friends who recently started T, and I wish I could too, but I haven't even had time to go to an endocrinologist. I've just been hella busy lately.
2) I haven't been binding lately because of theatre -- we dance and sing a lot, both of which suck when binding.
3) I play a woman in the spring musical this year.
4) My guy friends are all basically men by now. I'll be a senior soon and I still look/feel like a little girl.
5) I've been watching "I Am Jazz" and MilesChronicles and I can't tell if they've made me feel better or worse about being trans. Because they normalize it, which means I don't feel so alone, but at the same time I'm jealous of Jazz and Miles for transitioning and for passing so well, and then I feel bad about feeling jealous... It's a whole-ass mess.

- alright that was really emo here's a dog to cheer u up

- That's Elsie and I'm dogsitting her and her siblings this weekend!!

- I'm trying to write two (2) musicals right now and uh it's certainly going

- help

- I ID as bi instead of pan now for reasons I explained on my Instagram (@/cosapanmeme). Follow me there or comment a >:O if u want me to stop being lazy and post screenshots here. (edit: here they are lol)

- Sorry for the self promo

- Here's another self promo: follow my blog @/quorial on tumblr please, it has cool shit

- alright enough ads, time for more depression

- I've been feeling really :/ lately, probably mostly because of dysphoria. I hope it's mostly dysphoria tbh, because then it'll probably go away once I feel better about myself

- I miss my friends a lot, too. I don't feel like I have enough time to hang out with them which sucks. Over the summer, though, I'll have plenty of time to connect with old pals and have a jolly holiday

- this whole update is pretty sad and really short I'm sorry

So yeah, like I said, nothing very substantial is going on at the moment. If anything big goes on, you guys will be the first to know, though!

Question of the Day: team Apple or team Android?

Answer of the Day: After having owned an iPhone 4, an iPhone 5c, and an LG V20, I prefer the LG and I will never ever ever get another iPhone ever

Meme of the Day:

Yeah, that's my dumb face.

Seeya later,

- Mikey 💕